You know what I hate about myself more than anything its that i hate myself so much. Everyday is a constant fucking battle with hating my body . Every night is a constant battle to not hurt myself as bad thoughts creep into my head. I rarely sleep most nights because of the nightmares. Its never ending. I hate being the way I am . I hate feeling ugly. I hate feeling like I'll never fully be happy. I hate it. Im so afraid that someone will finally push me over the edge and ill be gone forever. I have people that I love but I don't know if I can be strong enough anymore I'm supposed to be strong for everyone else. I love my mommy and daddy and my best friend and my siblings and my mom . Sometimes I feel as if I wouldn't be missed by anyone.
