Tide Knot

Bottomless Blue

I woke up this morning in what felt like another dream. It was raining, and the sky looks pale gray. Everything looks real but in the same time something is missing. Not that I don't like it but there is always a nostalgia comes to my head. Something that I feel familiar but in a different way, I don't know what memory it is but I know how it feels. I believe millions of us have experienced the same feeling. Times when we're wrapped in a thick comfy blanket, and look through the window, seeing the world wet and pale.

But I'm not wrapped in a thick blanket. I'm not even on my bed. Ah, I think I've forgot how's bed and blanket feels like.

From here, I can see the sky prettier. It was clear. I remember how hard is it looking up to the sky because of the buildings. But here, in the middle of the ocean, everything looks better. The rain is dropping to my face. And it feels good. I move my tail slowly, swim back. Then I heard something.

"Sonja..." There is a whisper. "Sonja, come! It's time" that voice calling me. It sounds familiar.

I smiled. I let my body drown. Breathing is not what I'm doing anymore. At least not with nose. I move freely in a blue ocean. Swim and rolling without gravity. My tail can swim faster than any legs. There is lot of oxygen here; we just have to know how to get it. It takes me a while before this to learn how to take them without breathing.

I swim faster and faster. I never get lost. No, not here. This is my home.

"Sonja, are you a fish? Swim faster!" she sounds angry.

"Could you please just wait?"

My tail is strong and wide. It moves me. Let me tell you a secret about us. We are not mermaid, or at least not the one you imagine. I once just like any of you. Walking on the ground. Breathing with a nose. But you know there are elements in this world. Earth, fire, air, and water. And they are in us. Some of us have them balance, but other have one more than another. I am one of them. Water in me is too high. It is calling me since I was a kid. I just too afraid to listen.

About our tail, it is not like what you have seen in children's storybook. It's not scaly with lot of color like that. We once a human walk on the ground, so we have legs. But now it's wrapped with cloudy layer, fuse our legs into one and turning like a fin. It reflects the color of the ocean. Maybe that's why people see them as colorful scales.

"Hi Viane" I swim around her, faster and faster make a bubble that surely will annoy her.

"Sonja, stop it! You make me dizzy"

"Ah, you really have no fun" I stop and swim slowly next to her.

She holds my hand and we are swimming together to a huge building. I know this place, Curia. This is a meeting hall. We are Syreni, go to this place every month to talk (for me, to listen) about everything and anything. Something we shouldn't miss.

"I wonder if there is another Syreni coming" Viane talk slowly, more like talking to herself. She is different from me. Viane always want more Syreni, human who transform like us. I never understand why she wants more. According to me, more living being in here, the more problems will appear.

"Draco and Fera is having baby soon. They give us more Syreni right?" I said ignorantly.

"Please Sonja, it's different" she blows a bubble from her mouth, "Finitus Syreni is different, and you know that. They don't have a choice. They born to be us, they swim from the beginning"

Finitus Syreni is a pure Syreni. They are born as Syreni, never step their feet on the ground. I am not even sure they can walk.

"But you want more of us, what's the different?"