You are like water.

You are like water.
So soft to the touch
The light reflects off of you so beautifully.
Your eyes are so blue and piercing as the
Oceans I've seen in photographs.
I need you every single day.
In every single way.
You are within me, around me.
I swallow you whenever I need you.
You make me feel healthy and happy
When I'm feeling hot and dreaded, you would always be there for me.
I dive into your soul and feel the shivers down my spine.
I dive deeper and deeper and deeper.
Feeling content and calm.
But you are like water, my love.
The deeper I go, the harder it is to go up
You can either be too hot or too cold
I can't inhale you without choking.
If I stay within you so long, I get weary and bored.
I'm sorry I use you.
I'm sorry I take you for granted.
But baby that doesn't mean that you have to hurt me.
Your waves of anger bring me to my knees
It hurts to go along your skin piercing sand
It hurts to feel.
But you don't know that. Do you?
I was thrown away from somebody who used me.
And I landed into you.
You picked me up and I felt so alive.
But as time goes on, for what felt like a hours was only a minute.
You take me for granted.
Your twirl me around aggressively
Ripping me in every wave
In every crash!
I go deep and shallow
I can't breathe baby
I can't breathe!
Let me breathe!
Let me enjoy oxygen but you can't seem to grasp that I have other needs than you.
So you get jealous and angry.
Envy of air.
Envy of warmth.
Envy of every single need because you can't handle the fact that something else makes me happy.
But I love you, why don't you understand that?
They don't matter to me unlike you!
Stop getting so angry and putting it out on me because you can't handle not being the focus of attention.
I swim up, to get away from you.
Breathe slowly. Breathe faster. Breathe harder.
I love you.
Every time I dive deep, it gets darker
Harder to see
Harder to hear
But when I look up, I can see the light through you.
But it's so far away.
I'm scared to stay here longer and go deeper because I miss the light.
I miss the joy.
My eyes are red from the salty tears.
It's hard to not think about you
All the good times we had together
Us against the world but you can't seem to control your jealousy.
You ended us.
You hurt me.
You are like the morning coffee, and I hate coffee. But I love the warmth.
So much warmth.
So much comfort.
You are like the person in my dreams, except I wake up.
I miss being in that stupid trance.
I hate being awake and aware of things.
Forever and always, remember?
But if I stayed in water forever I would die.
I would suffocate.

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A/N
I wrote this because it's been on my mind. This is about my ex boyfriend who controlled me and had anger issues. Be careful my loves.