"life could fly by, and you could never even notice where it's gone. that's why it's important to seize the day"
earlier, i was fighting not to break out in tears in the middle of class. why? i don't know. my mood swings have been kind of terrible lately and i've started keeping a note of the dates i've randomly started sobbing and wasn't able to stop (every day this week, so far). i've been in the saddest mood ever, but i'm not actually sad, i more feel like my entire life is a hindrance to everybody i surround myself with.
i didn't realize how wrong i was until lunch. (i also didn't realize how obvious it was that i wasn't doing okay)
i finished eating, halfheartedly listening in on the conversations going on between my friends at this table. now usually i'm talkative, so i guess that was the first clue
i eventually put my head down, resting it on my arm. i was still trying not to cry when i felt someone take my hand. i looked up and i saw my friend, who's usually (in her words) a loud, boisterous, obnoxious asshole, looking at me like i was the most important person in the world.
my other friend, who was sitting next to her stood up, walked around the table, sat next to me, and put his arm around me, hugging me to his side
i had no idea my friends even cared about me like that, let alone enough to show it publicly
i had no idea i meant something to them
and now this is my promise to you
i promise you, no matter what you think, there's someone that cares. or at least understands.
and even if you KNOW there's absolutely NO ONE who cares or understands, you're wrong.
there's me
and i will be here
always.
i promise you that.
