No...She's not glad to see me definitely. She tries to find another way to cross the door without having to see me, but I intercept her by puting my arm around her. I notice she has a sandwich in her left hand, and an apple juice in the other one, what means that she has been fighing with his father again. You see...When that happens, she always has lunch outside.
Suraj : No!...Please, wait. - I tell her, looking right at her eyes.
She hesitates for a few seconds, and finally accepts. I guide her to our school's campus, under a tree. No one of us said any word until we sat. She seems nervous, and starts to eat her sandwich. It's from Subway, or something like that...I've seen a few of them in India, but here it's full of them!. The fact that she's eating while I'm trying to say something so complicated for me drives me crazy. By her look, I know she's waiting for me to begin to talk. I take a very deep breath and start...
Suraj : Okay...Emily, look...I didn't really mean what I said to you yester-
Emily : Do we really have to talk about that? - She says, almost screaming.
Suraj : I need to.
Emily : Well, I'm not in the mood, so we'll have to talk another da-
Suraj : No!. - She looks at me a bit scared and surprised - We will talk. You can't run of everything all the time, you know?. It's better to face it all, and then relax!.
Emily : I'm not having a great week, Suraj! You have no idea what I am going trough!
Suraj : You don't know what I'm going through neither! - I say, yelling. I notice a change in her expression. She has realized something - Did you ever asked me how I was?!?
She thinks for a while, and gets dissapointed of herself. I didn't want to tell her that, but I was right. I've been always there for her, and she never did for me...I see how tears start to fall in her cheecks...I'm feeling terrible, terrible right now. She's crying, and I'm only here watching her doing so.
Emily : You're right - says sobbing - I'm just a mess. I don't deserve a friend like you - she roses up to leave, and I took her by her arm.
Suraj : No, wait! I didn't...I didn't mean it, seriously. - I hug her tight, like I never hugged anyone - I'm sorry... - I hear her hard breathing...She's shattered - I'm sorry...
We keep huging and it's been a few minutes now. I feel so guilty. Well, I am. She takes a step behind, and the first thing I do is find her eyes. They're shinning...More than they usually do. Her brown hair moves with the wind. This moment is almost perfect. If she just wouldn't be crying. We're not talking, but at the same time saying everything. She wipes her tears with the sleeve of her jacket, and tries to breath normally.
Suraj : I'm sorry...
I say unconsciously. It breaks my heart to see her like this!
Emily : What did you want to talk about?
Suraj : About you. - she stares at me confused - and me.
Emily : About...Us?
Hearing her saying 'about us', and knowing that 'us' means she and me makes me feel something I never felt before...Something warm in my chest. I don't answer, because I'm actually asking to myself the same thing. About us?...About her, or you?. She gets mad because I don't reply her, and taking her purse tries to leave me alone. I reacted just in time, and blocked her way again. Due to that, I make her drop the juice in her shirt, and the sandwich falls to the floor. We end up really close, almost hugging again. She slowly raises her head and looks at my eyes, just like I do, although I must look down, as I'm 10 centimeters taller than her. I can smell her perfume...It smells like a lotus flower. It's as sweet as her look.
Suraj : It's just like when we met... - I say really unconsciously. She smiles, and her eyes are suddenly full of something I couldn't describe. No one of us moved asaide from the other, what suggests me that it's a good signal. Should I say something, or wait her to do anything?.
Emily : It's late. My math class will start in a few minutes - she says while she aparts her look from mine, and tries to take a step behind. I keep looking at her, just it case she tries to leave. Emily looks at my eyes again, probably waiting for me to say something. I still can see tears in her eyes. I don't really think there's too much to say. She wipes her tears with the right sleeve of her jacket this time. I make the silence make us look to each other's eyes for one more time.
Suraj : I love you - I say finally.
She's surprised. She probably thought that I wouldn't say a word anymore. Suddenly, her phone rings. She picks up the phone, and that's it. I'm done. She doesn't say anything, so I must think she doesn't feel the same. I turn and slowly walk away from her. I'm thinking about what made me do this...but I get no answer.
Emily : Suraj, wait!
Wait? For what? For a consolation speech?, no thanks. I keep walking away.
Emily : Suraj!
She tooks my right hand from my back, and I turn to look at her. Just as I do so, I have her arms around my neck, on tiptoe and I feel something I never did before. She's kissing me. I'm kissing her. I slowly hug her by her waist, and I feel how she strokes my face. This is definitely the best moment of my entire life. While this is happening, I can see in my mind all the moments we've been through...When I saw her running away from the carteen, the first time she smiled at me, when we were signing like two fools under the rain...I'm not sure how much this moment will last, but I'd love it to be endless; but it's finishing now. Our eyes meet once again. But this time, it's different. I can finally see love in her eyes, and I bet she can see the same in mine. She didn't take off her arms from my neck, and I don't want her to do so. She smiles, a bit embarrassed, and I laugh too.
Emily : This is weird, don't you think?
Suraj : Weird...Why? - I say smiling.
Emily : I've kissed a tree - She says laughing, and makes me laugh a lot.
When we both stop laughing, we only stare looking at each other. I just hope she's loving this moment just like I do. Now we're two fools who can't stop smiling.
Suraj : I love you.
She bites her lip, and kisses me again. I've never noticed how lovely she is. After this, we walk to school together, never leaving the other one get apart. I don't see her again until school time is over, and walk to her house with her, holding hands. She's different now, in a good way. She's always smiling and there's a sparkle in her eyes that I didn't see before. She won't go back to her house, so I tell her to go to mine for a while, and have dinner together. When we get to my house, Nataly is as always sitting in the couch. When she see us holding hands,, she says :
Nataly : Oh...Hello, you two!...How is it going? - she obviously already knows.
Emily : Nothing...- Says acting, while she takes both of my hands and smiles at me.
Suraj : Seems like she likes trees now. - Everyone laughs, including me.
Nataly : I'm so glad for you, guys. - Says while she roses up from the couch, and we smile.
Suraj : Is mom or dad at home?
Nataly : Mom's in the kitchen, and dad didn't come back from work yet.
Suraj : Allright, see you later. - I took Emily's hand and giude her to the kitchen.
My mother, well, actually Mrs. Jhonson, was really happy for it too. They were kind of used to hear me talking about Emily, and she came here a few times. The fact that my family likes her is just amazing. Although there' s a little problem still...How didn't I and Emily thought about it before?.
