{JOEY'S P.O.V}
I can't believe she actually left me... So not only did I lose my girlfriend... but I also lost my bestfriend. Anthony and Brii were basically my only friends that I talk to. I sighed. I looked down to see that I have recieved a text message from Brii
"Joey, I'm sorry. I feel really bad. if we are really meant to be together, we will find each other at the end of this dark, dark tunnel. I love you Joseph Micheal Graceffa, I always have, and I always will."
A tear slipped down my face. I can't believe that this is actually happening to me right now. I hate myself so much for losing Brii. I can't live with myself. I changed myself into a shirt and some sweats. i layed in my bed and stared at the ceiling. I'm falling deep into depression. Maybe if I fall asleep I'll die and never wake up. Yeah, sounds good. I closed my eyes and eventually fell asleep.
{BRII'S P.O.V}
I opened my eyes to find myself laying next to Anthony. I giggled. He was snoring so loud. "Shut up, Anthony. You sound like a damn bear." I said and chuckled. He lightly fluttered his eyelids open. "SHHH." He said and smiled. He sat up and so did I. I had this gut retching feeling in my stomach. I knew I missed Joey, I just couldn't let it shown. I have to be strong..
"What should we do today?" I asked him, trying to smile.. but I failed.. HORRIBLY. He shrugged and stared at me. He started studying my face.. "Me and Ian have to film for our new video.. You can come to the studio and hang out if you'd like.." Anthony said. I looked down and tried to hold back the tears.. but I just couldn't.
The tears flowed down my face and Anthony hugged. "Brii, Come on. It's ok. You're alright." He said while drawing little circles on my back with his finger tips, but that didn't even calm me down like it usually did when Joey did it. "I can't Anthony... I can't do this!" I said while sobbing.
he sighed. "How do you think I felt about Kalel? I just couldn't do it.. but I had to do it. And now I'm happy. Single life is free and fun. Come on, Please cheer up. Forget about Joey. Wipe him out of your brain and out of your life. He's probably making outwith Ingrid or something right now." Anthony said.
I sucked it up and wiped my tears.
You're strong, Brii. You can do this. No contact. No googling his name and looking at pictures of him. No watching him on Youtube, nothing.
Nothing.
I faked a smile and hugged Anthony. Little did he know that i was balling my eyes out in the inside. We got up out of bed and went into the livingroom to see Ian playing on his 3DS. "Anthony, we have to go." Ian said.
We all headed out to the car and drove to the Studio where they shoot all their videos that don't take place at the house. They went to get into costume and I just sat in a room on a black leather couch and stared at my phone, Contiplating whether to call Joey or not.
So I mentally made a Pros& Cons list.
Pros;
-I'll get to talk to Joey , It'll make me feel better, I'll get to apologize in person,
Cons;
- I'll get addicted to the feeling of having Joey, I won't stop trying to hear his voice, I said no contact.. So that means no.
I've come to a realization that he's probably with another girl and he's probably happy. I should just leave him alone.
I threw my phone onto the couch and layed back. No one wants me.. I'm just the underdog. Like Joey, My ONLY BESTFRIEND growing up isn't my friend or boyfriend anymore.
I can't do this. I closed my eyes and pictured all the times me and Joey had together. I couldn't even fight it anymore. I plugged in my earbuds and listened to my playlist which contained;
The Man Who Can't Be Move by The Fray , A Thousand Years by Christina Perry, it Will Rain by Bruno Mars, Anna Sun by Walk The Moon, and many more depressing songs that make me feel like I just want to grab someone and Kiss them, or Confess my feelings for people... Haha I know I'm weird.
I blasted my music and closed my eyes. Twenty minute later I felt the pressure of someone sitting on the couch. I opened my eyes to see a concerned Anthony sitting next to me, And I figured, hey. I got the feels, Sad music. And a guy right here. Why the hell not.
I grabbed Anthony and kissed him passionately. I pulled away, and he smiled. I pulled my ear buds out and looked down. "I'm sorry.." I said softly. He moved my chin up to look at him and said softly, "Brii, don't be sorry. I liked it." He said as he went in for another kiss. Like why the hell not. I kissed him back fully and he hugged me.
It was a kiss... but not Joey's kiss. The only real kiss that I REALLY crave. I sighed and put my head on Anthony's ahoulder as he talked to Ian about the video. I guess they were on lunch break or whatever.. I could see his smirk growing on his face...
God I hope he doesn't think we're in a relationship... I'm not even fucking ready for that shit yet, you know? I mean damnn i just broke up with Joey yesterday.
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Damn. Hahah sorry that this chapter was boring and short... But hey.
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