It's been four long years of thinking why that particular situation happened. That simple play began to be the misery of my life. I know God wanted it to happen for some reasons. I know it has been part of his plans. Before, I was doubtful of how I am going to manage myself without you. I've been in so many struggles that lead me to becoming the person I am today. Who am I at this moment is because of the things that you taught me. I was never that happy, I've never been as happy as when we were still together. I've heard a lot from you. I've seen a lot of changes. But looking at your pictures now and all your updates, it seems that the person I met and had before is still the same. You're still the guy who loves this super spicy congee, you're still the guy who loves sipping chocolate drink and all. I miss the days you tell me how you wanted to go to Canada and have a stable job there. You always wanted to be the rich guy, or I mean, man. I can still remember how you look at me and say how much you love me. Yes, that's definitely you.
I can still clearly remember how you cried a thousand times for how you were hurt for what I did. Until now, I am still sorry for that. I don't know but maybe because I was still too young that time that's why I wasn't able to manage my heart issues.
I really want to see you. I really want to explain how I wanted to hug you tight and kneel down to let you see and feel what my heart wants to say. I know there's still a connection between us. I know this time, it would be harder... but I can give up everything just to have another try.
