my best friend,I and he..

He was there standing by my side by still I thought that should I tell him that I think I'm in love with him....

But still I thought again..again and he went he dint even say hi ! I felt bad I wanted to share this with my best friend but she loved him and he loved her I wasn't in the story... It was always Jenny and Luke ... I had started dreaming about him. Shit ! This isn't possible I can't love him. He's my best friends boyfriend how could I even think of him. My mind and my heart had started to war my mind said no but my heart it couldn't stop loving him! He was so fascinating! he was with her always . This was killing me,tears started to drop through my eyes... i dint want jenny to get away from him all because of me.Cause he gave her the happiness... but i felt a bit jelous i guess of her when he walked with her, when he chased her.Isn't it like cheating on her... it was i thought i wanted to talk to someone mom wasn't in town.. my bestfriend is the one... who i tell every thing but here she was the person who was was loved by my c.....rrrrruuuu......ssshhhhh.... i couldn't say the word cuase he's my bestfriends... boyfriend! but its really not my fault or is it?

THE NEXT DAY.........

I had decided i can't really do this anymore.... It's over ... im done chasing him and running away from my own self.... I WENT TO JENNY SHE WAS WITH LUKE... I TOLD HER TO COME TO ME. I TOLD HER THAT I CANT BE BESTFRIENDS WITH HER ANYMORE... she was sad{she actually cried} but i couldnt help i couldnt meet her eyes....so, i went away.. cause when you love someone and that person loves someone else in my case my bestfriend.Its just the best to walk away from there lives! and if you want them to be happy just dont be in t

he story...

I was crushed I had fever jenny came to see me I told her to go away and never come to my house again .....

She went away but till then Lisa one of my good friends had noticed that I am not even talking to jenny she asked me that what was the case ?? I had never done this before ! I told her that nothing it's just that that I am bored with Jenny and have been looking for a new best friend lately ...... She was shocked she was like what the hell ? I am sure that there is some problem between you two you need to solve it u have been best friends since such a long time :) !!! But I was rude to her too I told her that , she did not have any need to inter fare between us {me and jenny} !!! Lisa went away ... Day by day I was creating problems for me .... But what could I even do it was all about ,"jenny" I could do anything for her and she deserved it too cause she was with me when no one else was but I heard her saying to Lisa that people always leave ... But I knew that it wasn't true !!! I was wit her it just wasn't the way she was thinking it too be it had to be never the less better ,,, I wanted to go to jenny and say please don't cry pls don't say that but I was just helpless I had to help her or do u think I was selfish ??

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