But For Now....

The Space Of Our Own Heart..

Even without having to think twice, my heart already knows that everything we share is beyond description. But I still matter in spite of all the difficulties, don't I ?.
I mean, I gave up so much.
My innermost innocence, every moral and value I ever had and believed in.
I sacrificed everything that I had.
I allowed you to breakdown every wall that I had built to protect myself.
I guess I see something that they can't and I know things that they don't. I am living in a fantasy where illusions cloud my own judgment. I suppose it is the kind of faith I have in the midst of what we call "Our Insane Normality". I know that sometimes I overreact but do you honestly blame me for trying to protect the closest piece to completing my puzzle? Just so you know there is a fair amount of fears that I have. Like having to live the rest of my life without you and only with our memories. So from this, I have come to terms with life's unfair deals. I so wish I could point fingers and find the same faults that they find in you. But I guess I fail to because my dreams of waking up next to you every morning are far more overwhelming than my fears. I want to be your very own "person". The last person you call at night and the first person you talk to in the morning. I want to be the one and only person that you can trust with your problems and not to mention your life. The one woman you would consider not as any woman but as your "Superwoman". I want to be there, with you every step of the way. But I guess this is just a delusion, a heart filled with emotion and a mind with great confusion. Maybe one day I will look back and say: "I Was Young And Naive". But For Now.... I Just Want To Love You.