Lost Girl

Dear Corey

November 4th

Dear Corey,

You are the only boy I know that isn't an asshole, you know that? Derek broke up with me. For Lauren!? Have you seen her? Ugh what a cow. Whatever I don't even care. I'm at the beach right now writing this. The calmness reminded me of you. How whenever we are together calmness radiates off you in waves. Your company is so intoxicating. Speaking of waves, the ones out here are pretty big right now. I would surf but I don't like surfing alone and I don't have my board in my truck. The ocean reminds me of you. I think I've told you that before. 

I miss you so much. Everything has changed since last summer. You left when we finished high school. Off on your big adventure you'd been planning since we were 6. I just wish I was in that plan. But I get it, you want to spend time with your girlfriend. She seems really sweet Corey she really does. I hope she makes you happy. I'll be on my own adventure soon enough too. Maybe we'll cross paths in France, or maybe India. Who knows? I heard your in Australia at the moment. 

I wish I wasn't stuck in this small town. But I have no money to leave and my parents are getting divorced. So its weird at home and I just want to be with you again. I want the summer back. I miss the endless days of surfing and chocolate ice creams. Then at night watching the stars and talking until the sun climbed back over the mountains. The all night movie marathons and spontaneous hikes. Caramel is doing good. I think she misses you. She sleeps on your mattress you used to sleep on in my room. It's covered in her golden fur. She is a good dog though. 

I'm thinking about leaving. Just packing and leaving. Driving for days. Just driving all over the country with Caramel. I want to go to New York and Las Vagas. Miami is great but I'm sick of it now. I have a bit of money saved enough for maybe a week or two of food and gas. I can sleep in my car so that cuts out accomodation. And I'll just work at diners and things along the way. Life on the road honestly sounds so appealing right now. 

Thats it. Tomorrow I'm quitting my job. 

See you in India.

Lots of love

Nat xx