Love kinda sucks right now. If your reading this then I have to warn u its just a 13 year old trying to be strong for the ones she loves But in reality I want to cry. I should be greatful right? That Im not out on the streets and I have food to eat. I would gladly take the place of another. I got a bag packed in case I break. I have a window in my room so I can run if I need to I wont commit suiside its a sin. I would guess I would try to get to my church and stay there. Its not like my mom would care. She constantly gets nto fights with her girlfreind because of me. Its not some sob story for you to throw me a pity party.The only one who would care is my grandma but she is on ohio so it doesnt help. People think im BI and call me gay just beuase I say stuff like I love u wifey o facebook. I have a fake marrige wIth my best friend she is the one who keeps me strong but she hasnt talked to me in a while so tht doesnt matter anymore. I used to could go to my across the street neighbor and he would gladly let me come on and talk to me and be there for me. But latly he has been giving me the cold shoulder. When I needed hm most he isnt there. I cried i my room for days not wanting to other others with my self. NOody would understnd anyways. Im the only one in my life that could know how im feeling. But It just scares me. Im depressed and sad abput somthing. But I dont now what. I dont know what I can do to help. It doesnt seem like there is anything i could do. So I just wait in my room for it to pass Its scary and im not sure how to deal with it. Reading is my getaway. But now I get i trouble if im reading the stories on my phone for to long.
