I want to love. want to be loved. I want to feel what true love really is. I'm tired of talking. Tired of getting to know people just to have things end in less than a month. I'm tired of letting my guard down to those who don't deserve it. I'm tired of opening up to people and having them judge me. I'm tired of letting my guard down ... For it to be a waste. A guard that I've built up for many years. A guard that took me a long time to maintain. People come and pretend as if they're genuine and that they won't hurt me.They act as if their intentions are real. It's a repeating cycle. Meet someone ...get to know them , tell them a little about myself only to have them be disgusted. Only to have them change their mind , only for them to realize they're wasting their time with me. Only for them to turn their backs on me as if they'd never met me. As if I didn't mean anything to them. I'm tired of that shit though. I want something raw, genuine and passionate. I want to feel that person deeply. I want to be around them and feel alive. I want to be able to trust them with my life and heart and know that they'll never hurt me. I want to push them to have them strive for more and better for themselves.I want to motivate them. I want to be their motivation. I want to show them what's really real. I want to show them what it's like to have someone go hard for them and support them in every aspect of life. Not only that but I want to feel and I want that person to feel. I want them to be around me and feel as though they can be their self and not be judged. As I want to be in tune with their life I also want us to be strong individuals. I want us to work and better ourselves and then connect all that hard work and dedication to create something beautiful, sensual , passionate and real. I want to recreate the meaning of love with them. Show them what it's like to have a best friend,
girlfriend, wife, partner,personal stylist ,motivator and lover all wrapped in one. I want to accept their flaws and faults just as they accept mine. I want this because I know love is patient, love is kind , love always protects, Always trusts , always hopes , always perseveres and that love never fails. I have faith that one day God will bless me with the man of my dreams but before that can happen I have to be built into the woman of his dreams.
