Confessions Of Falling For A Player

Second Thoughts

Chapter 4

Next Day

I woke up feeling awfully sore. My legs were frail and my private felt like it just had a beating causing me to wobble when I walk. I hate the fact that I had to go to school with this dilemma, but I didn't have a choice. I already knew what caused it so I couldn't use that as an excuse to stay home, plus my mom was the type of mom that makes you go to school until the nurse sends you home. So I sucked it up and tried my best to maintain the pain. On the bus Donovan and I conversated about the day before, and I explained to him that I was feeling sore. He apologized although it was bound to happen anyway. Once we go to school we went our separate ways to join our friends. As soon as I saw Cree I anxiously informed her that I had news.

"Oh my gosh girl you won't believe what happened yesterday!" I said excitedly.

"What? What happened?" She questioned now becoming eager to receive the news.

"I lost my virginity!" I explained.

"Wait, what?!?" She replied not looking too excited about the news.

"Yeah, I lost my virginity. Donovan and I had sex for the first time yesterday." I said now losing interest in the conversation.

"So you mean to tell me you and this boy who you've been dating for two weeks had sex??? Are you crazy Alexia? Y'all haven't even been together that long! How do you even know if this boy isn't just playing you? I hear girls say he's a player and just wants to get in girls pants. You need to break up with him now! Come on lets go find him!" She preached tugging on my arm.

"No." I said pulling my arm back. "I trust him. He loves me and he wouldn't do me like that, and it's not like he forced me; I wanted to do it." I argued.

"Alright, but when that boy hurts you, you'll know I was right." She snapped.

This was the first disagreement me and Cree ever had since we became friends. I know that she's just being a friend and wants what's best for me, but I feel that Donovan is what's best for me. But she was right, how did I know if he wasn't just playing me? I felt so dumb letting my guard down and allowing this to happen. We should've just waited; I just hope that Donovan doesn't make me regret it.

Cree POV

I can't believe that Alexia let this boy get in her pants; I know she is way smarter than that. I tried convincing her to break up with him but it's like her mind isn't straight. She's my best friend and the last thing I want is for some boy to hurt her. But at the end of the day it's her life and her decision to make, and no matter what I'm going to stand by her side.

Alexia POV

Thoughts of regret circled my head all day after the reality check from Cree. I really don't know what to do or think at the moment. Although I do know I must stay positive, because I might be working myself up for no reason. So I should just talk to Donovan first before I accuse him of anything. I invited Donovan over after school so we can talk. We sat on the porch in silence for a moment before he spoke.

"What's up, are you okay?" He asked. I could tell that he knew something bothering me by my tense body language.

I took a long and heavy sigh before speaking. "A lot of things have been going through my head, and I just don't know what to do. I love you and I trust you, but I just need you to tell me that you are serious about this relationship and not playing me. I was told that you're a player and these are the things that you do; have sex with girls then leave." I stressed. "So please just let me know now before I get hurt." I said now becoming emotional.

"Are you serious?" He chuckled, and then stopped once he looked into my eyes that were now tearing up.

"Look at me." He said raising my chin so that we were gazing into each other's eyes.

"I promise you on my life I'm not playing you. I love you Alexia, and I'm going to do whatever I have to do to prove it to you. I know you probably heard somethings and I'll admit I was a bit of a player, but you changed because of you. The last thing I want to do is hurt the girl I love, and you are the only girl I ever truly loved. And that having sex with girls and leaving shit is a lie. You know why?" He asked looking dead into my eyes.

"Why?" I sobbed; tears were now falling down my face.

"Because you were my first too.... I was just as nervous as you were." He sighed.

I felt so dumb for not realizing that we gave each other our virginities. I hated myself for actually thinking that he was playing me. From this day forward I'm going to support him no matter what someone tells me because now I know he isn't going to hurt me.

"I'm sorry baby. I promise that I'm not going to accuse you of something stupid like that again." I apologized with eyes full of tears.

"It's alright baby." Donovan said bringing me into his arms wiping my tears. He then kissed my forehead and held me in his arms.

The mood then brightened and we just decided to chill for a bit. Everything was fine until I got a strange message on my phone.