Nobody Prays for the Heartless [On hold!]

Chapter 1

On another note, my boyfriend always brightened my darkest days. Stephen was one of the best things that had ever happened to me. 

We could sit there for hours at a time just watching movies and it could easily be my favorite way to spend the day.  I called him my escape. I always went to him about my problems. I could call him at two in the morning crying my eyes out and he'd sit there shushing me and singing to me until I fell asleep. 

Stephan had saved me in more than just the ways of the heart. He built my self esteem back up, got me out of an abusive relationship and he kept me in school. If I hadn't had stubmled across him, I'd be like every other one of my junkie friends that I use to associate with. Most of them were in Jail, dead, or just flat out miserable. 

I never went a day without seeing him for the first 2 years we were together. Maybe it was a bad idea in the long run, but I enjoyed it for now. I loved him. I loved him as much as a girl in high school was capable to love. Stephan changed my life. Whether it was a postive or a negative influence, I knew I'd never be the same again after being with him. 

I had to be happy with Stephen. He was all I had left at this point. My best friend always tried to sleep with him behind my back, and most of my current friends didn't ever talk to me anymore. Except for April. She was my real best friend. She never once tried to double cross me and we'd been inseperable since the 4th grade when we both moved here. 

Here lately though, all Stephan and I ever did was fight. We fought about stupid things, we fought about serious things. In my opinion we fought when we ran out of other things to say. A more recent topic of argue came from the girls he constantly would talk to. Most of my friends were boys, so I couldn't get too upset with him for having what I reffered to as 'chick friends.' 

Stephen possibly had one of the worst self esteems I had ever seen. He was always talking about how I was too pretty to be with him. I always ignored that comment. I heard it enough from the guys at school that tried to sweep me off my feet. Stephan had my heart, and that's all there was to that story. His self esteem managed to stab a knife in our relationship though. I think all his chick friends had feelings for him and I couldn't blame them. He had this innocent charm about him that even attracted me to him. You can't help who you have feelings for. I understood that. However, I expected the girls to respect boundaries and I expected Stephan to not let them cross it.

He did this for the most part. I think he just liked having the attention and it tended to go to his head from time to time. I didn't mind that. It was nice seeing him feel good about himself for once. Maybe I should have minded. I should have braced myself because little did I know that my happiness with him was almost burned out. 

I never expected him to do it, but he did.