lost and found

chapter 2

i made it to school with 15 minutes to spare.

i walked out my car, slinging my bag over my shoulder then locked it.

my friends werent here yet sadly. i want to hear if there is any gossip.

i walked over to a school bench table and sat down.

i plugged my earphones into my phone and put them in, instantly hearing 'burn' by ellie goulding.

i smiled to myself and pulled out my secret notebook and a pen.

my secret notebook has all my secrets, who ive fancied and things that people dont know about me.

'i hate to say it but i dont feel like im living my life. like this isnt me. im meant to be someone else, somewhere else. other than knowing this i dont know if i fancy this guy called' was all i started writing when someone sat infront of me.

i slammed my book over and yanked my headphones out quickly.

it was ash. one of the jocks. who i hated very much.

"hey rose, babe" he winked.

"what do you want?" i asked, staring at him.

"you" he smirked.

"not happening" i stated.

"whats that you got there babe?" he grinned eyeing my book.

"nothing" i pulled it closer to me.

he quickly reached out and snatched it strongly and flicked through it.

"give me that back!" i yelled and reached over.

he pulled away and laughed, reading it all.

"give me it. please" i begged.

"hey seth! look at this!" he yelled.

i turned and steph was jogging over to us.

"no, please. give me it. its private!" i kept reaching out to grab it as i begged quietly but loud enough so he heard.

seth stopped behind me and held my arms behind my back.

"let me go and give that back and stop reading it" i stated.

"theyres juicy stuff in here" ash ignored me and kept reading.

"dude, she used to fancy you! listen to this" ash started reading out of it. "i feel alone non stop and even though i have a mum who loves me, i just feel like i dont belong here. i belong somewhere else with someone else. i am like a normal girl. with normal crushes. my latest crush is on seth jacobs. he may be hot but i dont know why i fancy him. he used to bully me and beat me up non stop in primary but he never does it now. thankfully. ive done things i regret still and always will because of him" he read.

tears brimmed in my eyes, seconds from spilling.

"you used to bully and beat her up man?" ash asked.

"yeah. noone knew until now" then seth pushed me against the tree strongly, "i told you that noone was to know about that. or else. looks like youre going to get what you deserve now" he chuckled darkly.

he let me go and chucked my book at me then left with ash following.

i slid down the tree trunk and clutched my book, crying silently to myself.

this is it.

it starts all over again, from the begining.

the bullying and beatings are back.