Losing My Mind For Him

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"Beep, Beep" "Ughh I fucking hate mornings!!, I always feel like they're the worst time of day" I said as I was dragging my half asleep self off my bed. So im Xavier im 16 years old and have always been really self consious about my looks, I always wear clothes that you would get at a store in the mall and I'm about your average height for a guy and have messy brown hair. I was always told by my parents and friends that I was handsome however I believed the opposite, probably because of my low self-esteem. Anyways as I was getting out of my bed I got on my feet and felt like my weight was being pulled back down to the floor, I walked across my beyond messy room over towards my closet to pick out an outfit for the day. I opened the closet doors and pulled out my tan joggers and my maroon american Eagle T-shirt. "Xavier hurry up it's 7:20 and you have to be at school in another hour" My mom yelled at me from down stairs.

"Shit" I yelled. I hurried grabbing my clothes and headed across the hall from my room to the bathroom to take a shower so I look somewhat presentable for the day. I slowly pulled down my basketball shorts and underwear and climbed into the shower. I was so horny this morning looking down at my rock-hard penis. I don't know why I was so horny I've never had sex before. I avoided my urge to jerk off in the shower due to time restrictions. I turned on the fawcett and..."Ahhhhh thats cold" the water was so cold I quickly turned the faucett as far to the warm side as I could. 

I hurried out the shower and blow dried my hair and put my dry shampoo in to give it a messy quiff look for the day. Then I used my face cleaner and ran downstairs to grab my bookbag and coat. 

When I walked outside my house to get to my car the air hithe air hit me like a freight train it was 5 degrees outside which ofcourse is considered normal here in Minnesota. I walked through the fresh snow from the night and walked over to my '01 Jeep Grand Cherokee that my parents gave to me when I first got my liscense.

I opened the door to my car and climbed in and turned on the ignition and waited for it to warm up and pulled out of my driveway and onto the street.

Usually in the mornings on my way to school I pick up my friend Danielle who I've been friends with since we were about 12. Danielle is short and has long brown hair and was beautiful...Okay I'm her gay best friend I can call her hot if i want to. 

I pulled up to Danielles Apartment building and she hopped in

"Ayyye Honey" I Said as she got in

"Haha Xavier I love you, your such a great friend" she replied

"I know i am" I replied

"Ughh ready for a wonderful day at our shit-hole high school" I said sarcastically as ever

"Biiiitch you know i am" she said enthusiastically

If there's one thing me and Danielle could relate on was our hatred for High School, maybe if we went to a different school it'd be better. Our High School was a decent sized school in St. Cloud which is about an hour from Minneapolis for you people not from Minnesota. St. Cloud was a decent sized town and had everything you would need to be happy but was certainly not your lively big city. 

We finally arrived at the High School with 10 minutes to spare before the bell. 

Being gay at my school is kinda rare we only have 4 gay guys in our school and they've all ended up dating eachother at some point in time. I for one have only had one boyfriend at my school and it just didn't work out because he was way to self conceeded and then he went on to date the next gay guy in our school. In all honesty the guys at my school are kinda pathetic because they all act heart broken then end up dating the next gay guy within a week its like a nonstop cycle.