In Love With a Criminal(ChrisxJinxx)

Chapter 13

Chris' POV:

The room felt cold. Dark. Full of sadness. I looked around at the sunken faces of Jeremy's friends as they gathered around his open coffin. Sammi and Ash were holding each other as they sobbed softly. Ricky was holding onto Devin who was crying on the sofa next to the coffin. CC was comforting the two girls but i could see the black eyeliner running down his face. There were a few other people who i didn't recognize. They were probably some kids from school who knew him. A middle aged woman who i found out was Jeremy's mother came up to me. I kept a frown on my face practically forcing the tears to come out of my eyes.  Jeremy's mother(who's name was Stacy(ik thats not really her name so hush cx)) gave me a small sad smile and put her hand on my shoulder. She was much shorter then me but taller then Jeremy. She had Jeremy's baby blue eyes, ivory skin, and raven black hair. Stacy looked up at me and sighed softly, her grip on her tissue tightening. I held her free hand sniffling a little. 

"Jeremy was so lucky to have you Josh." She sniffled squeezing my hand before wiping a tear away. I felt my heart sink a little. I felt so bad that she had to suffer so much not knowing her son isn't really dead. I was taking him away from her. I never thought this far into the plan, i didn't expect so much suffering. Well now they know my pain. I had to go through the same thing after my father die. I was the only one who even showed up to his funeral. Well, besides my uncle aka his older brother. But he wasn't this sympathetic towards me. Nobody was there to comfort me. Jeremy on the other hand had so many friends who cared. A mother who loved him. The tension in the air almost made me want to throw up. Not because i was cold hearted, but because i was jealous of Jeremy. Not just of him but of his life. I wasn't mad at him or anything. He's just a really lucky guy. And i'm going to take care of him so nobody will ever ruin his life like mine. 

"I think i was more lucky to have a guy like Jeremy. " I bit my lip as she smiled before hugging me. I hugged back and we pulled away. She walked away to some woman and started talking with her. I sighed softly and ran my hand through my combed hair not caring if i messed it up. I looked over to see Dahvie and Jayy walk towards me. They both were wearing suits and both had temporary black dye in their hair so they wouldn't draw too much attention. They were pretending to be workers from the morgue(which wasn't a complete lie) along side the preacher Stacy hired. It was almost 6 so they will be burying Jeremy soon. 

"So, you know what to do right?" Dahvie spoke softly in my ear. I nodded and kept chewing on my lip rings, a nervous habit i developed. Hopefully this all goes according to plan. I walked over to the open coffin where Sammi was with Ash and CC. I gently patted Sammi's back and she gave me a tight hug. Ash shortly joined so i hugged them both. When we pulled away i looked down at Jeremy's still body. He looked beautiful. His ivory skin, feathery black hair, and that perfectly shaped face. He was wearing black eyeliner along with black eyeshadow making his eyes seem almost like empty sockets. His long eyelashes were resting softly against his skin like butterflies amongst white rose petals. Jesus Christ where were these words coming from. Jeremy always played his classical music and i guess the words pierced me. They were beautiful songs. And they sounded even better when he played them on his violin. I've learned so much about this boy in such little time it's crazy. At first i just wanted to use him as a hostage and maybe even kill him so he wouldn't snitch. But now that i look down at him, all i want to do is protect him. I wouldn't let anybody ever hurt him. I've put him through so much, and i want to make it up to him. I'll make his life even better. I'll treat him right. Hell, i might even want to ask him to be my actual boyfriend.

I softly caressed his cheek and smiled letting a tear fall down my cheek.  

"Don't worry Jeremy, i'll take care of you. I promise." I whispered softly enough only for him to hear. "I'm sorry for everything i've put you through, but i'll make it up to you. I swear." I leaned down and gently kissed his cheek. I heard a few 'aw's' and looked over to see the guys standing there. My face turned red and i looked down.