My happiness

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   Today I opened my eyes
   And I saw the colors
   I walked down the lake
   And I saw the salty waves roll over
   I strolled down navy pier
   And I bought myself some popcorn
   I headed to the Ferris wheel
   And I heard a jerry blow it's horn
    I looked up at the sky
  Clear,cloudless,blue
    And at that moment I'm time
   I knew my happiness was true.
  Today I opened my eyes
And everything seemed a little dimmer
    I got out of bed
    And this horrible feeling started to simmer
  20 minutes later and I was waiting for class to start
   I pulled out my outdated ringer
     And the hate began to start
  Your fat,your ugly,unwanted
   My friends,my classmates taunted
  You'll never be like us
    No matter how much you want it
  I went back down
    To the Lakeside
  And the bitter waves seemed grey
   I saw a Jerry boat and a rock collide,
   To much of my dismay
    I looked up at the sky
    Dull,grey,tired
    And at that moment in time
  I knew something wasn't right
     I will open my eyes tomorrow
   And all I will see is darkness
     I will go down by the Lakeside
And the waves will be stormy or dark
    Ill walk down main street
Into a crowd of thousands
    I will sit there and weep
And I will feel so powerless
     My time is up
I've had enough
     The train ran off it's path
I'm cold I'm numb
   My feelings unable to map
The crowd thins out
  Now they listen
Didn't you know?  Nothing ever lasts
     Everything is blurry
And people start to panic
Stop being so frantic
    I looked up at the sky
And saw flashes of  red, blue,and frost
   And at that moment in time
I knew my happiness was lost.
   My vision gets darker
My breaths become shorter
  The lines on the heart monitor
Come in an erratic order
    A wave of calm rushes over
I see him standing next to my shoulder
I know this time it's over
  I look up at the hospital ceiling
And I see the artificial lights
This time has been such a struggle, this time has been such a......
   Everything stops
And that's that
   They were right
I'll never be what they want
And at that moment in time
   My happiness... was gone

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