Today I opened my eyes
And I saw the colors
I walked down the lake
And I saw the salty waves roll over
I strolled down navy pier
And I bought myself some popcorn
I headed to the Ferris wheel
And I heard a jerry blow it's horn
I looked up at the sky
Clear,cloudless,blue
And at that moment I'm time
I knew my happiness was true.
Today I opened my eyes
And everything seemed a little dimmer
I got out of bed
And this horrible feeling started to simmer
20 minutes later and I was waiting for class to start
I pulled out my outdated ringer
And the hate began to start
Your fat,your ugly,unwanted
My friends,my classmates taunted
You'll never be like us
No matter how much you want it
I went back down
To the Lakeside
And the bitter waves seemed grey
I saw a Jerry boat and a rock collide,
To much of my dismay
I looked up at the sky
Dull,grey,tired
And at that moment in time
I knew something wasn't right
I will open my eyes tomorrow
And all I will see is darkness
I will go down by the Lakeside
And the waves will be stormy or dark
Ill walk down main street
Into a crowd of thousands
I will sit there and weep
And I will feel so powerless
My time is up
I've had enough
The train ran off it's path
I'm cold I'm numb
My feelings unable to map
The crowd thins out
Now they listen
Didn't you know? Nothing ever lasts
Everything is blurry
And people start to panic
Stop being so frantic
I looked up at the sky
And saw flashes of red, blue,and frost
And at that moment in time
I knew my happiness was lost.
My vision gets darker
My breaths become shorter
The lines on the heart monitor
Come in an erratic order
A wave of calm rushes over
I see him standing next to my shoulder
I know this time it's over
I look up at the hospital ceiling
And I see the artificial lights
This time has been such a struggle, this time has been such a......
Everything stops
And that's that
They were right
I'll never be what they want
And at that moment in time
My happiness... was gone..............
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