As I sat in class bored as hell, I thought of what we could've been. Maybe, just maybe, if I did something different it wouldn't be like this, us apart and not together like I wish we could be. Maybe it just wasn't meant to be, but maybe if you just loved me. Loved me like I love and still loved you. I just wish you could hold me in your arms and never let go. I wish we could be something, maybe not now, maybe when your ready, when I'm ready. I never really thought much of you, shoot, I didn't know you even existed for gods sake. We had and still do have just one class together, and it's my favorite. I sat down a few feet away from where you were sitting, wishing we were a thing, but we're not. Everyone I know doesn't like you and I wish I never knew you, but I do know you and I will know you for the rest of my life, no matter what happens, I'll know you. I play it cool as if I never liked you at all, but something holds me back from letting go, of what we used to have. Maybe you did love me, but that love faded away, like the sand on a beach on a windy day. That love was strong too, at least it seemed like it. We talked for awhile, till things went wrong. Everything went wrong from that moment you sent me that message to me on a sunny afternoon. I was doing multiple things at a time , more than I could handle apparently. And you sent that message to me and i didn't know what to do. The only reason I knew you was because of a girl. A girl who was madly I love with you. She wanted no one else to have you, but you had didn't thoughts in mind.. I tried to change the subject. You just went along with it like nothing happened, but something did happen, and now it's just a memory. A memory that I'll never forget. I don't get it anymore, I don't get you anymore. One day you want to talk to me and everything, the next, you treat me like a stranger. As if we don't even know each others names. And it makes me think, what happened to us. You made it seem as if you even cared at all, but now, we're just strangers with memories. You cross my mind every now and then, and I think you think of my too sometimes. I wonder what you think of when you hear my name, or when someone asks you about me. I just wonder what you think of me. You talked to my friend the other day, you said you hated me, I doubt that. I'm sure every now and then you think of me, just like I think of you every once in a while. I can't wait till the day I can look at you and feel nothing. Maybe you'll know what you lost once I'm long gone, away from this place. This place where I see you in the halls everyday, I wanna get out of that place. I wanna live a life where I never knew you existed, like before. When I loved another boy who was just time that was wasted. Just like you, my time that I wasted on you and you left me and don't even feel a thing when you get to see me in the halls. Sometimes I think you go through the halls I go through just to get
a look at me, but now I think your as fake as everyone mostly everyone at school. I wish I never knew you even existed.
