Monday 5th August, 2013, 9:22 pm
Northern Downpour - Panic! At The Disco
Dear Diary,
Its official.
Luke is a butt.
He told me that it would just be me and him, and Michael and Calum for bowling, so I went in denim shorts and a baggy shirt, only to find Ashton there too! And then, to make matters worse, they all decided to put me on a team with just me and him.
I'm going to shoot them all.
I couldn't even focus on what I was doing, because of Ashton's presence. He gives me the worst case of the butterflies imaginable, and every second of the session we had, his eyes were glued to me.
Luke didn't help that at all, he kept nudging Ashton and whispering things like "why don't you go help her? Unless you want to loooooose" and then smirking that stupid little smirk of his.
And then guess what?
Ashton got up, and actually helped me bowl! Which only made me bowl worse because of his close proximity! I can't win, it doesn't matter what I did, Luke always found a way to get me and Ashton to touch.
But when we did touch, it was magical. I got this almost electric spark every time we made contact, it was so odd. In other news, we won. Me and the broken boy make a good team. And because we won, Michael of course demanded a rematch tomorrow, he's ridiculously competitive. Ashton Irwin agreed to the match, then turned to me, and asked if I wanted to be on his team again. When I said yes, he pushed another fake smile out, and hugged me, whispering "its a date" into my ear.
What does he mean "it's a date" though? It'd be a rather crappy date if Luke, Cal, and Mikey were all there trying to cock block. Or was he just joking? I hope he wasn't joking.
Maybe I could use our little "team" as a way for me to find out what happened to him. I should message him on Facebook, ask him to go get a milkshake with me straight after school, and talk over tactics.
That shouldn't be too hard, right?
Lots of love,
Z.
~*~
10:46 pm.
Dear Diary,
So, I asked him, and he said he'd come pick me up for school tomorrow, and then drive me home after we'd gone for the milkshakes.
Its just milkshakes, why am I so nervous?
I go for milkshakes with the boys all the time, why is Ashton Irwin any different?
No matter what, I must not fall in love with the broken boy. That's a no no.
I'm over thinking everything again, aren't I, Diary? I barely know this boy, why would I fall in love with him? I must be tired. Yeah, that's it, it's the lack of sleep that's talking.
I'm going to go fix my sleeping problem now.
Lots of Love,
Z.
