My suicide story!

Hi, I'm Kate or as my Friends and Family say Katie Kate I'm here to tell you my story and what I've been threw, it all started in grade 6......

I wasn't so worried about grade six because I had my friends and I wasn't really bullied or anything and I done good in school, until one school day I could hear these two girls in my class I never really talked to them or anything but they got all the guys and they had nice and and they where very pretty anyway when we where in the line up I heard these two girls Charlie and Britney they where talking about how ugly and gross I was I even heard then call me fat but I just turned around and talked to my friend Hannah.

The next day of school Britney the girl who was talking about me past me a note I read it before the teacher turned around the note says "You smell bad, take a shower" I crumbled up the note and tucked it in my desk the bell rang for lunch and me and Hannah went out side we where walking around the field laughing and talking about our favourite tv show American Idol I always dreamed to be a singer, as we where walking I felt someone tap me on the back. I turned around it was Charlie and Britney I thought to my self why are they being Mean to me all of a sudden?

Charlie had called me some mean names like "Fat" "ugly" "gross" etc Hannah just grabbed my arm and pulled me away from them she was always a good friend, the talent show was coming on Friday and I decide to sing for it I just didn't know what song and then I kept thinking and thinking and then it came to me......Big Girls Don't cry I always lived that song.

It's finically Friday and in lined up for the talent show I realized a lot of people are singing its my turn now as I walked up on the stage I seen Hannah she gave me to thumbs up I smiled and began to sing, when I finished everyone was clapping and cheering I was so happy 3 week later Britney and Charlie new I wanted to be a singer but they said I wasn't good enough and that I should kill my self and they kept calling me fat and that I should stop eating so I did, I became anorexic in grade 8 Britney and Charlie started calling me more and more names Hannah was sad I was anorexic she said I was perfect before just the way I was I didn't know what to do anymore I kept getting Text messages Facebook Messages saying I was "your so gross like go kill yourself ugly bitch" I didn't know what to do, I went home and locked my self in my room no one was home yet I took a pencil sharpener and took the razor thingy out of it.

I went to the washroom and leaned against the sink looking in the mirror and cried I looked like a clown with my mascara running, I yelled cause I was confused I took the razor and lifted up my shirts I cut my stomach I felt kinda better, the bullying got worse and my cutting got worse they found out I was cutting and they said I was doing it for attention thy turned everyone against me even Hannah I was alone and didn't want to be here anymore......

I decided to leave I wrote a note that said "I've left I couldn't take the name calling anymore, I just don't want to breath or be seen I'm alone and don't know what to do I'm sorry mom I love you" I took a knife and cut deep in my wrist I screamed in pain and cried so very hard "owwww" I needed to cut deeper to get to my life vain but my mom seen me she was shocked and tears ran down her face she ran to me and hugged me and told me......

"Don't ever leave, your beautiful honey your worth more then you think please don't ever do this again" I hugged her Back she cars 911 cuz I was sitting In my blood it was that bad.

Me and my mom moved and I started fresh and met new friends and even a boy friend who loves me very much :)

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As you should know ;) I am in grade 9 now :D Anyway

I hoped you liked my story, I'm so glade my Mom saved me cause im so happy with my life now it does get better i promise you, please don't try to risk your life your worth it and cutting wont help you might think it does but it doesn't

Stay Strong your Perfect :*

~Kate