「Despair」❥YuuMika

Never say forever

Despair;
Chapter 1

Mika's POV

I sat on the chair next to my desk in my bedroom, taking out my diary from the cabinet, it was the diary where I had written every single moment when I was younger, when I was still with Yuu-chan and my family. I would read it everyday, when I could, to remember what Yuu and I used to do, some years ago.

When I was with him.

Because now that I'm stuck here underground, in this shitty vampire city, I can't see him. I'm a vampire now, and I didn't want to become one, not at all. It is painful. I would have preferred dying than becoming another 'bloodsucker'. But there was nothing I could do. And I refuse to drink human blood, I don't want to become a full vampire, Yuu-chan would probably hate me. I just kept on living because I didn't want to become anything worse than this. And I also need to see Yuu-chan, I want to be with him, to run away from everything along with him. For his own sake. Humans have been using him unfairly; they are mean, probably just making him think they're his friends, acting and lying to him. I must protect him and get away with him from the humans, they're hurting him while he doesn't notice, and I won't let that happen anymore. When I meet him, I'll definitely save him from those monsters.

3rd person POV

Mika opened the small, red book to a random page that read:

XX/XX/XX
Todae was a gret dae; I, Yuu-chan, and Akane playd hide & sekk.

He chuckled at this, he didn't quite remember when that happened but he supposed it was back when he lived at the orphanage with his family, because of his ortography mistakes and terrible hand-writing. He flipped some other pages to read something that wasn't so old.

XX/XX/XX
Today I was told that a vampire called "Ferid Bathory" would give me anything I want if I let him suck my blood, because he is a noble. I should try that tomorrow.
Today was a good day, Yuu-chan was so funny when he talked about how he'd beat all the vampires and made everyone laugh. He sure is an idiot.

XX/XX/XX
I went to look for that noble vampire in the morning, all I was told was true, he gave me some candies after I let him drink some of my blood. I shared them with the guys, 1 for each, but I let Yuu-chan have 2 =)

Mika could remember that, the first time he met Ferid and let him suck his blood, when he was 10 years old. Now he regretted even asking that one guy who told him about that. He had wanted to change everyone's life, but not like that. It was upsetting him to think about it, it always did and he was always lamenting his family's death, which was why he was always upset and depressed. No matter how much he tried to avoid thinking about that, he couldn't stop hating on himself for it.

His plan was too dumb and stupid, it would have never worked against a vampire, he should've known that; it was his own fault that everyone died, that now Yuu-chan and him were separated.

Mika shook his head lightly and sighed, he picked the diary, closing it and re-opening it to another random page.

XX/XX/XX
Yuu-chan's birthday party was great! It all went as I had planned, everyone had fun~! And Yuu said that he really really liked his birthday cake that I made with Akane and the guys.
After everyone else went to sleep, Yuu-chan and I went for a walk outside, and then we kissed ♡

At this point, Mika could feel several cold droplets roll down his cheeks. And while he was blushing, he hugged the little book.