-Brinley POV-
"Remember Brinley, Nothing less then perfect." I tell myself that over and over again. My whole life has become just one huge expectation. I walk into school and look around, first day of Senior year, let the adventures begin. I look around at the confused freshman, a few ask for directions to their home room as I pass and of course I gladly help. I walk in and sit through the dreadful announcements. I sit through my classes and then head off to Cheer. "5,6,7,8..Hit, Hit, Hit, Pull!" I yell at my squad as we start running our routine. We have been practicing this since the beggining of August, We have made it to Nationals 4 years in a row and we don't plan on having it any different this year. My squad is like a second family. I have ONE best friend though, Aubrey. I have known her since kinderarden and we do EVERYTHING together, all the rest of my friends? They aren't really friends, They just like to say that I associate with them. I guess that's the price of being popular. whatever. I grab my stuff and meet Aubrey by the car, I give her a lift home from practice every day. We listen to the mix cd she made me for my birthday as we always do and just talk about what happend that day. "I cannot believe it's our SENIOR YEAR!" Aubrey said excitedly slightly turning down the radio, "I know!" I replied finally letting it sink in. "After this, We are off to COLLEGE BABY!" she shouted again causing me to chuckle. We arrived at her house and she got out, "Thanks Bri! I'll text you!" she exclaimed closing the door, I nodded and waved in responce, I got home finally and walked in, "Mom?" I called out curiously not seeing her purse on the coffee table like I usually do when I get home. I walk into the kitchen and see a note on the fridge,
"Hey sweetie, they called me back into work for the night! I'm really sorry! There's a twenty under the milk, get whatever you want for dinner! Hope you had a great first day of Senior year! Love you. -Mom"
I opened the fridge and grab the money. "Oh, the perks of having a surgeon for a Mom." I thought aloud walking up to my bedroom to check in on twitter and tumblr and stuff, I lazily browsed through the sites and felt my mood sink. I know you're probably thinking what the fuck? I know, It's weird, but it happens a lot. See, I suffer from depression. Nobody knows except Aubrey and my mom of course. It started in Freshman year, my dad started to care less and the pressure to be perfect became more. I used to cry everyday. I could never figure out why my dad would never answer my calls, or texts, or why he just pushed me away. I used to think I wasn't good enough anymore to be his daughter, The hunger to become perfect was more and more. I just wanted my dad to love me again, instead I slipped into depression, but I kept it to myself because now I was at the top and I wasn't going to let a silly "mental disorder" bring me down. So, now here I am, living a double life. Perfect to the world. Dying on the inside.
-A/N: Sorry if this sucks! I will probably write more tomorrow but it is currently 4 AM and I just wanted to start :p , I hope you don't mind time skips because there will be a pretty big one coming up ahah. - Jenna-
