It's been about two very slow weeks since the incident with the boys. Keaton said he wasn't feeling good, and classes aren't mandatory, so he went to the boys house for the day. I was going over to surprise him. When I got there, no one was in the living room, so I went to the kitchen. Suddenly I heard something coming from down the hall. "Keaton?" I said a bit startled. I walked to the door and that's when I realized what the sound were. Heard moaning, not miserable, but pleasurable. "Keaton?" I said again, only this time I wasn't much louder than a mouse. I flung the door open to see him laying in the bed, and some dude that looked familiar on him...both entirely naked. It was a kid from campus. "Oh my god, how could you?! I trusted you! You dirty sleaze ball! That's it, I'm leaving. And I suggest you don't come back to the dorm." I said absolutely infuriated. "Alex," I ignored him. "Alex, please wait. I can explain." He grabbed my arm. I pulled it away immediately. "Explain what, Keaton? That you went and fucked some random person and didn't bother to think 'hey I have a boyfriend, maybe I shouldn't fuck anyone I want anytime I want' or the fact that you lied about being sick" I added quotations with the word sick and didn't even think about how I would feel if I found out?!" I wanted to punch him so bad. "Hey calm down dude." The kid said. "You'd better shut the fuck up before I beat the shit out of you." "Okay, I get it." Hr replied. "And as for you," I pointed to Keaton, "I don't want to talk to you ever again in my life. I'll drop out of college, I'll move across country, hell, I'd move the fuck to Australia to get away from you." And with that, I walked out slamming the door in his face. I ignored his many attempts to call me back to him. I refused to listen. I started walking back to the dorm because it was that, or Keaton drive me because my friend that dropped me off had gone to work.
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It's been a week. A whole week of crying and doubting myself. Did he hate me? Did he ever love me? Was I just really that repulsive? I heard a knock at the door. "Go away!" I moaned. Moaned I thought. Much like Keaton and the slut. This forced me to tears. "Is that any way to talk to your best friend." Leah walked in. "Oh my god, Leah!" "What happened to you. You look terrible." Thanks Leah that made me feel much better. "It's Keaton... He... He..." I couldn't finish my sentence because when I tried, the sobs grew louder and stronger. "Awe,I get it. You don't need to torture yourself." She came over and sat on Keaton's bed. Keaton. The thought of him never sleeping there again. Our cuddles, they're gone. Our kisses, gone. Our hugs, gone. Him...... gone. He tried talking to me. Calling my phone. I turned it off. On campus. I hid. In class. I didn't go. I avoided him at all costs. He hurt me.... bad. I was telling the truth when I said I never wanted to see him again. "It'll be okay, I promise." Leah said. "You can't actually promise that. As of this point, the only thing that is okay is the fact that you're here." "Exactly, I'm here. So instead of moping over someone that hurt you, have fun with someone that makes you happy." Her saying this made me feel a bit happier, but not much. Another person knocked at the door. This time, it wasn't such a surprise, at least not a sweet one. "What are you doing here? I thought I made myself clear." I was disappointed and immediately snapped back to depression when I realized it was Keaton. I refused to cry, so I turned it all into anger. "You-you-you did b-but I need you like really bad." "Keaton, have you been drinking? You need to listen to me and listen good... Go down the hall, knock on your best friend's door, and LEAVE! ME! ALONE!" I demanded. And with that I slammed the door in his face. "Alex you can't just leave him there like that. At least take him home." "He has friends, they'll do it. As for us, we're going out. There's a party tonight, so we need to go shopping and get some clothes." I wasn't much of a partier, so I hadn't much 'party' clothes, but I needed him off my mind.
I was having fun for once in my life. I did drink a lot though. I liked the feeling of numbness it gave me, both mental, and physical. "Alex, you okay?" A male voice asked. I forced my eyes open. "Where am I?" I groaned. "Alex, you are... I'm sorry... Were, at a party. Everyone left you need to get home." This guys voice was familiar... You have got to be kidding me. "What are you doing here, Keat? And I don't know what you're talking about, the party doesn't end until I say so, and I don't want it to end." "Alex you're absolutely drunk. How much did you drink?" Keaton sounded concerned, and I'm sure I would have noticed it were it not for my alcohol content. "I, I don't remember. Oh hey Keaton when did you get here? Where's Leah? Wait, where am I?" I say up on the grass. I really have no idea where I am. "Whoa." I said plainly. "Okay, take it easy. Here let's get you comfortable." He said as he grabbed my arms and dragged me to the side of the building. "Alex, are you mad at me? I don't know what I was doing. I regret every second of it. I only love you, no one else. He just came over to give me my notes, and then, I don't know if it was just how sick I was but he turned me on. Alex? Alex?" "What, yeah! No! I don't know. Keaton, I love you, I really do. But what you did hurt me. Maybe we can go back to campus and talk." I winked. I didn't want to talk about what happened, but I did want him. "Okay let's get in the car." "Wait I thought we already were. Keaton, kiss me." "Alex, you're drunk. Don't do something you'll regret. Just come on." He wrapped his his arms underneath my own, and helped me stand. "I won't regret it. I want you. We can talk in the morning, and tonight, do a little dirty-dirty." I suggested. By now we were in the car. "What is the dirty-dirty? Besides, you need sleep... And water... And a breath mint wouldn't hurt." I wanted him so bad, and it wasn't just drunken me. The only problem is what he did. "Is this because you just find me repulsive?" "Alex no,I think you're so hot. I don't know why I did it. I want you, and only you." He tried to convince me. "Then why won't you sleep with me? You won't even kiss me. I want to forgive you, but you won't let me." I shouted then started to cry a little. "Alex! You're drunk. You aren't thinking clearly. We'll talk tomorrow."
Back at the dorm, he helped me in. He brought me to the bed then pulled the blanket on me. "Now I'm gonna leave. I'll call you in the morning." He said turning towards the door. "No, stay." I demanded. "Excuse me?" "Please. I'm not gonna want to talk tomorrow unless I have no choice. Plus I just want to cuddle again in case we don't get to. I just love the warmth that radiates off of you." Tears were coming again. "Alex," "Fine I get it. You don't want me. You can leave now." "Find, I give in. Only because I don't want you crying anymore." He took his clothes off, came to the bed, and wrapped himself around me. Our faces only inches apart. I pulled in closer, only this time, he did to. We were kissing like we always do. I wanted more. I forced my tongue into his mouth. He was shocked, but warmed up to the idea. He soon pulled back. "You need some sleep." And I quickly drifted off.
(A/N)
I don't know what to say. I am doing something different with the chapter titles. This is also the longest chapter yet and I still didn't get everything I wanted in. Hope you guys enjoy.
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-Alex😘
