Quiet Uptown

"I can't believe YOU DID THAT!" Dan heard himself screaming this, echoing in his head.

"Well at least I am not THE IDIOT WHO CAME UP WITH THE IDEA!" Phil's voice was loud and sharp. Stinging Dan's heart with every word.

" It was SARCASM PHIIIILL!" He shuttered when he hears the bitterness in his tone. " We have lived together for WHO KNOWS how many years and you STILL CAN'T HEAR WHAT I AM SAYING!"

"Well maybe I could hear it if YOU weren't always SCREAMING!" A sharp pain hit Dan like a every thing was crashing down on top of him. His jaw tightened with every word of hate that echoed so loudly he...

"Dan!" A soft whisper of his name and the touch of a hand brought him back to reality. The room was dead silent except for his heavy breathing. The darkness of the room seamed to be a little less intense, but the seen in front of him was not. Death, something that Dan thought a lot about, but now he was seeing one that pulled at the people around him.

He looked to see the smaller man with tears in his eyes, Dan suddenly noticed he had some to but they were already rolling down his cheeks.

"Are you ok? I know this is a really emotional seen but you seam to be..."

"I'm fine, really Tyler, but thank you."

A quick flash of his quirky smile gave Dan the impression that Tyler must have thought he was crying over this play. 

Yeah the play was good. He really liked this Hamilton guy, could probably relate to him if he got invested, but something was preventing him. No, it's not because he was british and that meant he "couldn't understand as much and really appreciate it". No, it was something else, what happened with Phil a few weeks back was still haunting him. He messed up real bad, but compared to Hamilton it wasn't that bad. Still it was terrible what he did.

Dan decides to try to watch the rest of the play with no interrupting thought about what happened with Phil.

A piano began to play.

There are moments that the words don't reach

There is suffering too terrible to name

You hold your child as tight as you can

And push away the unimaginable

The moments when you're in so deep

It feels easier to just swim down

The Hamiltons move uptown

And learn to live with the unimaginable

"Emotional much" Dan chuckled internally at his joke but something else caught his attention. The suffering, the feeling of giving up, having to live in an unimaginable, its something Dan could relate to, with...

I spend hours in the garden

I walk alone to the store

And it's quiet uptown

I never liked the quiet before

I take the children to church on Sunday

A sign of the cross at the door

And I pray

That never used to happen before

Dan laughed at the thought of him going to church on sundays when he was younger. Then that one time with Phil by accident when exploring London. He thought it was a fancy looking restaurant until we went in.