Flipped

Chapter 21

I don't remember much of what happened, Just a jumble of events that I can't explain clearly.

The ambulance. Being unaware of everything around me. Adrenaline shots to restart my heart. Machines beeping and blinking to keep me alive. Nurses and Doctors coming in and out of my room. Stethoscopes, needles, and antiseptics.

After a week of being in the hospital, I was able to leave Hawaii. Avi already left , since he couldn't stay any longer with me.

Avi...
What will happen once I'm back home?
What will become of us?

All I remember that night was Avi's pale green eyes, full of regret and sorrow. I closed my eyes and sighed as I looked out the window, seeing the clouds pass by.

I'm on my way home.

I'll remain trapped in there again.

I'm alive, but I don't want to be...

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"Mom, dad, I'm fine!" I groaned as they wiped their tears away. "You had us worried sick! We couldn't go to Hawaii, and your sister already left for Paris! She felt terrible for leaving and was about to come back!" My mother exclaimed. I felt my heart drop at that. "How could you do this to yourself? You almost died... We almost lost our Mitch..." She whispered.

I wanted to say something, I wanted to tell her about my freedom there, and how amazing it felt. But nothing comes out of my mouth.

Only the guilt of an ocean for me to drown in.

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I remained in my bed after they left, as they promised they'll comeback as soon as possible.

I turned over and sighed as I saw my window, reminding me of the world out there.

What do I regret?

The fact that I went outside for the first time? That I saw and fell in love with the world? That I fell in love with Avi?

How can I live the rest of my life in this bubble after I seen what I've been missing all along?

I closed my eyes and tried to sleep.

Key word, Tried.

During that time of trying, I decided that love was a terrible thing. Loving someone as much as I love Avi is dangerous. It's like wearing your heart on your sleeve, with nothing to protect it. And it hurts...

Love is a terrible thing... And I want nothing to do with it...