Baby Don't Cut (Hunter Rowland Fanfic)

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look everyday is the same thing for me, it's like some schedule I have to go by or something like that

I walk into school and their always there it's like they have cameras on me or anything so they know when I'm going to get to school

Here's the other thing my parents died when I was 13, i even think Hunter cried more than I did, they were like his second parents and hunters mom was like my 2nd mom, that was until Hunter told me he never wanted me to see his family again

I don't know what happened to that kid, what made him get the idea to leave me all of a sudden, was I not a good enough friend for you

I walk into the school and their they are, the whole gang coming up to give me my morning  beat up, I hate it I hate the life I'm living

My family left me, Hunter left me, I have no friends, and this year I broke my promise, the promise I made Hunter, to never cut, my cutting has gotten worse because of all the shit that has happened to me and I hate my life I'm better off dead, because there's nothing to live for anymore

All I am is some toy so people can come, chew and rip me up and break my heart and all those things I'm tired of it all

I want my old life and I want it now!!

Their all surrounded by me one by one getting to punch, kick, pull, rip, scratch, and even spit on me

Hunter never beats me up he's always in the back laughing at everything they do to me, getting it on camera for the whole school to see

I wonder if he even knows that i still love him, yes he's fucking pissing me off and I don't know if I'll ever get my Hunter back, but I'm not going to stop loving him he's still the only thing I have left

As the bell rings and they all get to class I run to the bathroom and pull out my blade

*1 cut
*2 cut
*3 cut
*4 cut

As I'm crying and watching every tear hit the floor, how did I end up like this I wish someone would just answer me for god sake

Im worthless I need someone to tell me it will be ok, that this isn't real, that I'm ok, Hunter was the only one who made me feel confident, who made me feel loved, he was there when my parents died and now I don't know who I am anymore if I don't have him with me, his laugh, his smile, his stupidity sometimes, the sparkle in his eyes, the way he got jealous, I miss my best friend

I live by myself, I don't even have a home really, I practically starve myself everyday, trying to loose weight, I still don't wear makeup anymore because of what Hunter said, I'm always by myself and no one ever wants to be my partner when it comes to class assignments

I just sit there in the stahl waiting until someone will help me, anybody?