Benja And Bacca

chapter 9 Mitchs POV

I was trying to go to sleep but couldn't UGH WHY IS LIFE SO HARD WHY COULDNT I BE A NORMAK CHILD
My life has been shit bullied when jerome wasn't there finding out I was anorexsic I'm happy that stopped then be in depressed when Jerome moved resulting me to badly talking to him so me resprting to cutting whitch is not pretty to me being clean for about a year to me finding out I was gay and liked my bestfriend with resulted to me losing friends too me feeling lonely to cutting and now living with the gjhy I loved but now I will never have
I grabbed a vase and threw it not even relishing what I did I later down u till someone sat on my bed I got scared and saw who it was I calmed down when it was jerome
"okay so i got a question for you why in the world did you break a vase?"
"I got mad because I can't fall asleep"
Lies I was telling lies ojerome one can't know I was depressed 2 about me cutting and 3 liking him that would mess up our friendship
"Why are you up that's my question for you" I was questioning why he was up so late
"I dont know just having a Mitch night"
"Is that what where calling them now Mitch nights" nice to know that I have these so often that he named them after me
"That's what I'm calling them mostly because when I have them I can hang out with you "
I started to blush so I turned around a obvuise move when blushing like a mad men but I needed to find out I looked at him and he was smirking gosh dang it Preston why did you have to be right
"You ever have those nights you know before I started this like you where tired but something in your brain told you not to go to sleep"
I don't know what I was doing I was breaking down in front of my best friend this cant be happening
"Yes I have Mitch yes I have"
"What?"
"I have a lot acculy"
"why if you don't mind me asking"
"i don't if only I can ask you the same question"
I shook my head yes I mean I ask why cant he
"you"
"what?"
"you "
"why me"
"because I never realized how much I missed my best friend until I left now why do you have them"
"would it be weird if I said you"
"no I mean I said you so it okay"
" yeah well you "
"man it sounds like where mocking eachother but why"
"people bullies they never touched me when I was with you but once you left they did and everynight I would think if I had you there it would never happen or if I went with you witch I had the option to do but I felt like you didn't want me to and I couldn't leave my friends but found out they didn't care and thst was my night until we started talking a lot more then we moved here"
by then I was almost in tears because I cant tell him a lot of things he knows I was anorexic he helped me with it but he doesn't know about the cutting and me being gay
"oh buggums come here im sorry I left I didn't want to don't worry I know what its like I went to the same thing people suck mitch but you cant listen to them people are just cowerds and don't know how to deal with there feelings to they hurt people to get it out but they don't relize how much it hurts people "
I didn't relize I was crying till I started full on sobbing I cant belive Jerome had to deal with it like I did I hope he isn't stupid like I am
"mitch I got a question for you "
"yeah biggums "
"did you ever do something so stupid you regret doing It"
I looked at him and nodded slowly and he looked at me and I started messing with my sleeves something I do when I get scared or sad and im both I started getting tears in my eyes and I think he put together the pieces
"can I see?" this is the question I wanted to avoid from anyone I never wanted any one to know no one did but I guess Jerome is the first one to know like he is for everything
I looked at him and started rolling up my sleeve I mean I don't do it any more but the scars is still visible like it just happen I stopped and looked at him tears in my eyes
"biggums im not going to judge "
I took my jacket off and I didn't look at Jerome there was a moment of silence until Jerome put his hand on my chin to make me look at him I started at him about to cry he grabbed my arm and kissed the scars it made me cry not making me sad but this is my dream Jerome stared at me and it reminded me of the night when Preston came we where about to kiss but he ruined it Jerome started to lean in at I smiled I leaned in to and next thing I know Im kissing my best friend my crush and it felt great I started kissing back and I felt Jerome smile I felt butterfly's in my stumic I thought to myself mitch you going to be cheesy when I say this but our lips fit together like puzzle pieces but of course like any other human we needed air and we pulled apart I looked at him and smiled but I think the biggest smile Ive had in a long time
"mitch why didn't you tell me how good of a kisser you are"
"oh gosh im not that good "
"um yeah you are I mean come on "
"okay what ever you say"
"yep"
"hey Jerome"
"yeah"
"what are we now "
"i don't know what do you want to be "
I mumbled really quietly 'boyfriends'
"what was that biggums couldn't here you "
"boyfriends"
I looked down in my lap thinking he wouldn't we lifted my chin up and stared in my eyes
"Mitch will you be my boyfriend"
I flipped out I smiled so big and jumped on Jerome
"oh my gosh yes ive been dreaming about this day sence the day you left"
"one thing"
"yep"
"no telling poofless buddys around them unless you want to be attact"
I was kinda sad at the fact we couldn't be a couple around poofless but I understand we would get attact by them
"agreed "
we herd growning meaning one of the poofless boys woke up Jerome pect my lips and ran into his room all I do is smile and layed down next thing I know I feel asleep