Joel{COMPLETED}

Chapter 5

Aprils POV
I wake up alan next to me.I get up and quietly leave into johann's apartment.I see joel look up from his phone at me."Where the hell were you?"he asks."At alans."i say."Oh."he says."Are u dating alan?"he asks."No!"i say quickly.I see johann."April.We need to talk."he says.We go in the hall."April.im sry but we are over.Im sorry.I didnt knlw how to tell you.I hope you understand.We can still be friends."he says.I stand there processing what he just said.It taked a few minutes for it to hit me.Johann dumped me.I look up."Its okay."i say.I feel like crying but hold it in.Johann soon leaves and so does stephanie.I start crying as soon as they leave."Whats wrong?"joel asks."Johann dumped me."i whisper.He smiles and it suprises me.He quickly frowns."You guys were dating and you didnt tell me?"he says."Well i mean umm idk."i say nervously."Its ok im glad yall arent together."he says and sighs.Im confused but dont say anything.Alan had texted me to go get icecream later after his practice.I had agreed.It was an an hour.I was changed and i decide to watch tv.Joel left for practice.I soon hear a knock.I open and its alan.He holds a teddy bear."Hope you feel better!"he says."Thanks!!"i say and hug him.I put it on the bed and we leave.Nana had left her car for us plus she was inside."Menchies?"he asks."YES!"i say excitedly.We ordered and went to the park.We are on the swings."ILL BEAT YOU!"i say.He laughs and starts swinging after me.He tries to jump off but falls.I laugh at first but get off my swing.I shake him."Alan r u ok??!!"i ask worried."Mhmmm idk a kiss would help."he says and smirks.I peck his lips."Thx.Im feeling better now."he says and gets up.It soon turns into night.We lay beside each other and gaze at the stars.He slowly makes his way to my hand and holds it tight.He squeezes it."I love you."he says."Thats what evwryone says.But its not true."i say my voice shaky now.He sits up and looks at me.I can feel myself tearing up.He wipes away my tears."Such a beautiful girl shoudlnt be crying."he whispers.I sniff."Im not beautiful.Im just ugly."i say."No ur beautiful."he says."Alan "Alan u think that.But im not!"i say."Yes you are.And ur nice and smart."he says."No im not."i say."Stop it.Ur putting urself down."he says."No im not i just cant lie to myself."i say."Ur lying to urself by saying ur not beautiful.Not nice.Not smart.Thats what ur lying about."he says."Shut up!ok.u just dont get it."i say and get up.I walk away."April.i get it ok.U just think ur an awful person.right?well ur weong bc ur not."he says."Its much more than that.Things have happened that you dont know about.Only me and the people who hurt me will know.No one else.Not even you.Not even Joel knows."i say and cry."Who has hurt you?What have they done to make you think ur not beautiful.Theyve made you think wrong.They have twisted you so you think wrong about yourself."he says."I just shouldnt have said anything."i mutter."Lets leave.I want to leave."i say.He sighs.We get back quickly.I just go ahead and sleep in his apartment.He turns the lights off and slips
In bed next to me."Goodnight beautiful girl."he whispers in my ear."Goodnight alan."i say.I dont feel like arguing right now.