It's All In The Past (one direction)

I can't trust you

I stood in shock as my best friend just told me her boyfriend has been hitting her. I would be mad that she has been keeping this from me, but I've been doing the same thing. I only ever told her about mydad being drunk. I never told her about him hitting me. I was now sitting on Niall's couch, crying. He tried to hug me but I flinched away, I felt bad, but what can I do? Im not used to a guy touching me without hitting me, im suprised Alex was letting Harry touch her after what she just went through. I have to get out of here, I cant burden Niall, and I certainly can't trust him or get close to him.

"Thanks Niall, but I have to go," I said in a shaky voice.

"Where are you going?"

I knew he was going to ask this

"Niall, im sorry, but it doesnt really concern you right now," I said in a stronger voice

I walked back a bit because was scared he was going to hit me for saying that. He started coming towards me, closed my eyes to wait for the impact, but it never came. I opened my eyes to see Niall standing right in front of me. He grabbed my hands.

"Scar, I promise you I would never hurt you, please stay, you can trust me," he said strongly

"Niall, Im telling you now, I wont be able to trust anyone, its hard for a broken girl to trust someone,"

"Scar, I just dont want anything to happen to you, you're special, can't you just stay the night?"

I got out of his grip and looked him dead in the eye.

"No Niall! Im not special! Im a worthless piece of trash! You dont get that if I die no one would care, they would just get on with there lifes!"

"Who the hell made you think like that? You are not worthless and I would care if you died!"

"You want to know who made me this way? Ot was my own god damn father. He made sure that I felt like that everyday, AFTER he beat me," I said loudly.

Oops I accidentally yelled that and now Alex and harry were out here.

You want to know what I did? I just ran.

I ran to the park my mom used to take my sister and I. I sat on the swing and just cried. I couldnt do this anymore. I went to the bridge, like I said no one would care if I died, right?

Just as I was about to jump, someone pulled me down.I turned around and snapped at the person who did that.

"What the hell!?"

I fell to my knees ahdstarted to let tears slip, whoever did this they just sang into my ear.

You know I'll be

Your life, your voice your reason to be

My love, my heart

Is breathing for this

Moments in time

I'll find the words to say

Before you leave me today

As my sobs got quieter, I gradually fell asleep into the strander's arms.