I am nothing.
On the inside I have thoughts, feelings,emotions,and fears.
I feel pain.
I am full of weakness.
But yet I am nothing.
I put on a smile so everyone thinks that I am happy.
But yet all I feel is sadness.
I feel broken inside.
All I want to do is cry and cry and cry.
But I can't.
My body does not have the physical capacity too.
Nor do I want to.
I don't want anyone to know my pain.
I know there are tons of people who would be there for me.
But there is nothing they can do.
I don't know how to feel this void in my heart.
So I stay silent.
I have heard many people say not to bottle all your emotions away.
But I am.
Because I don't know what else to do.
I don't want my mom to feel worse about herself.
Because I know she does.
I don't want my friends to feel sorry for me.
Which I know they already do.
And most of all even though I hate to admit because I hate feeling this way.
I don't want anyone to think im weak.
I don't want anyone looking at me and thinking of how sad or fragile I am.
I want to be strong.
I want to be independent.
I want to breathe.
I don't want to be scared to turn the next corner and be judged.
Right now.
I just want to be nothing.
