pain gets stronger as time passes. He was in the back seat behind the passenger, the driver, his friend, after picking up his girlfriend decided to drive and he lost control of the car, into oncoming traffic. The girl and my boyfriend lost their life. two innocent amazing people....it kills me everyday just imaging what he was thinking those last minutes before he ....."scared", "alone".. I don't understand if he had to die God could make him at least in my arms..looking into the person I loved .. saying my last words. i know it's hard..but i want it.. I miss you..I miss your smile, I miss your laugh, I miss your smell, I miss your phone calls and texts,i miss talking to you, i miss everything about you, I miss just knowing you're there, I miss all the ways only you could make me laugh, I miss our pointless car rides to just hear the system bump, i miss my other half, i miss my lover, i miss my best friend...I wish you can hear me saying those words, can you even see me?.. I wanna know if you're here? Are you okay babe? Are you doing Fine?.. It really hurts me to think about you all day long , loving you forever can't be wrong, even I know you're not here but I won't move on. Every night I close my eyes , it's like a dark way . but your soul is hugging me and telling me that everything is Fine , I WISH I WAS DEAD
