I realized how much of a horrible person I am. I hate me so much it hurts I fuck up everything. But mostly I fucked up relationships I had with other people. Like if I was a better daughter than meybr my mom wouldn't hate me. I was better looking then maybe my exes wouldn't leave me for someone else. Or if I was a better gf then maybe I would get dumped by the people I love the most. I'm scared to think that all I would ever be to any girl is a homewrecker or a bitch and all I'd ever be to a guy is a hoe or an ex or a baby moms. I hate the fact that all I ever do is hope for someone that truly loves me and not strongly cares. I hate the fact that I can't think of whats best for Me. I care about u guys more than I do for myself that's why I hate choosing between people because I hate ruining friendships that me and them already have. And I don't want people to hate me cause I didn't choose. I dont want people to hate me I truly don't. I hate myself as much as its is I hate the words I love u cause they are never truelove doesn't last forever. I don't know how people can truly love me. If I don't truly love myself
~Sequence this time not Sweetheart
