I am not an ordinary person. My life has been a living HELL!! When you look around you are supposed to see family, love and friends, but when I look around I see terror, betrayal, and FEAR. I try to hide everything behind a smile, it keeps everyone fooled but MYSELF....
My mother hurts me, every chance she gets. She hurts me in every way. Most times it is for no REASON.
Scars and tears all over my body because she hates me. I believe that she hits me to show that she is in charge. When she hurts me, I always try to go to a place to be alone, to let out my ANGER.
Crying for what though? For absolutely no reason. She don't deserve me and I don't deserve this pain I try to do things to make my mother happy. I remember my mother told me I was selfish, ungrateful, and ugly. I try, I try my best to make her smile
A mother ? She does not deserve to have that title. She does not deserve anything. I HATE her and I know she hates me too. She always say she does these things to help me and show me not to disobey her. WHY !!???
Remember? I remember one day she let another man hit me. Hang me upside down and beat me. A man that was not her husband and was not my father. How can she let him HURT me. I am the one who cried every single night but I am still the one who would do anything for her. This terror and hits continued. She had 7 kids by this man. He never liked me either. I remember when he used to watch me and his kids. He would feed and buy them whatever they wanted but will hit me and beat me if I ever tried to cook me anything or even left my room.
Erase... That is what I wish I could do to these memories and to the pain I been through. The pain and betrayal only gets worse as I get older. My younger sisters gets everything, but I get nothing. They get treated like royalty and I get put on the sideline. That is why I try to leave whenever I have a chance.
Done, Haha, I am done with all of this. NOW it is time for me to FIGHT BACK!!!!!!
