Fourteen Days

Fourteen Days

by hannahanney

started: 03-02-16 10:49 PM finished: 03-02-16 11:54 PM

We met last year, October 2015. I don't know if it's fate or destiny but whatever it is, I'm thankful that we met. I didn't even know that you exist and I don't even care about you. You were just my schoolmate back then. I started noticing you when my friend keeps on telling me that she has a crush, again, I didn't even know that it was you. Days passed when she started saying, 'Look! There he is. That's my crush.' I was like, 'Okay, he's handsome, cute, but not jaw-dropping.' Weeks passed and I still don't have a care about you. One day we're having a practice, you were there. That's the time I noticed you. I even stare at you and said to my self, 'He's so damn attractive.' Well at first I don't care if I look crazy because that time, I was doing some funny acts and you were like laughing at me. Your friend, happens to be my classmate, introduced you to me. Again, I don't care. You sent me a friend request on my Facebook account; I confirmed. Fast forward. You posted something like, 'Comment, I'll send you a VM.' At that time, I was already attracted to you, so I commented. You sent me a VM and you sang 'Stay With Me' by Sam Smith. We had a convo and exchanged numbers. Now that's the start.

We started hanging out and I enjoyed your company. You can make me laugh and smile, you make me happy. I can still remember the time we went to your place and went to the mangrove site, Oct. 26, 2015. You told me almost everything about your life. Despite of all the negativities, I still accepted you. By that time, I started to fall. You've been so honest with me. You didn't care if I get disgusted or not. And with that, I loved you even more. Can you still remember the time we sang 'Soldier' by Before You Exit love? That memory of us still linger in my mind. When you had your operation to remove your cyst, I was deeply worried about you. Did you know, it's my first time to enter the hospital you got confined in? And I did it because of you, just for you love. My love for you was not diminshed even if your teeth got removed. Do you remember the time we had a 'date' at the mall and took our first selfie? I can also remember the time we went to the mall to videoke. But sadly, all the numbers you entered was old songs. You were annoyed that time! If I'm not mistaken, November 28, 2015, we went to mall again to videoke. We had that sweet moment tho. You took a lot of picture of us, love. I still have it in my phone. I don't have the courage to delete those.

December 3, 2015. Remember this date love? I said yes to you as your girlfriend. I'm so happy that time because we're already a couple. December 5, 2015 we went to a community immersion at your place. We had a misunderstanding that time but you let me and my friends come over your home. I met your family and I was happy. Imagine me, a simple, not-so-pretty girl is a girlfriend of a handsome guy who has a lot of admirers. For thirteen days, we we're so sweet and happy together. December 17, 2015, the last day I heard you telling me 'I love you love!' If only I knew that it was going to be the last, I won't end that call. December 18, no good morning messages, no single text or call or message on fb. December 19, 2015, it's your birthday love! I greeted you through text and I even posted on your wall, still no YOU showed up. I tried to contact your mom, no response. I started to think that you now have a new girl. I waited for five days. You didn't showed up love. I was waiting for your messages, calls, but nothing came. If you only knew how I miss your voice, your smile and your laugh. I waited love, I've waited. But all things come to an end. December 24, 2015, I texted you to break up. Still no response. Christmas and New Year came without you until I knew that you have someone else. How can you do that to me love? I thought you'll wait for the right time? Is my love not enough? Maybe because I didn't give everything to you but a kiss on the cheeks. Maybe I can't fulfill your 'needs' that's why you looked for another. You now have a BOYFRIEND. Whatever your reason is, I hope you say it to me so that I knew. I was just waiting for nothing.

I thought I was over you. I thought I already moved on. But why is it that everytime I see you in school, I can't help but reminisce our past? Do I still love you or I am just waiting for your reason? I saw you earlier at the faculty room. You were taking a test, alone. I knew it was you. We had an eye-to-eye contact for a several seconds. I can see hate in your eyes when you looked at me, in return, I did the same thing. But that moment, I felt like the time stopped. All the memories flashed back on my mind. I don't know if you really loved me. If you did, thank you for loving me even if it's just for FOURTEEN DAYS. For the last time, let me say this to you, 'I loved you love. I did love you.'