Poems From The Nights Alone.

Loving Alone's Love

the feeling of being alone isn't so bad once you get used to it

you might even like it once you get to know her

She is very cold and sad when you meet her at first

though after a couple of days or weeks sometimes months or years

you stop feeling the cold

and all that there is left is alone

but this isn't so bad

when you're alone you can sleep wherever

you can say anything

you can put any kind of music you want

you don't have to be worried about being judged

you don't have to worry if someone else is comfortable while you hold them in your arms,

you don't have to worry about any of these thing, even though you want to worry about them

you want to have someone to hold

you want to be able to ask someone for there opinion

being alone isn't the best thing in the world

though

"it is something that can give me allot of comfort even if it hurts sometimes it's better then..."

and that's when you stop yourself to think

and then you realize that you don't want to be alone

that no matter how convenient it is there is nothing you wouldn't give to be able to hold someone and truly love them

but you don't want to risk it

when you love someone you are at great risk

you give them everything you can and still want to give them things you can't

it hurts when you can't make them smile after a hard day

it hurts when you can't be with them on those nights that feel like they'll last forever

those nights that feel like they're going to drown you in loneliness

"but I don't have to risk it"

and then you stop

and begin to look at loneliness again

the one that can always be found lurking in the back of your mind

and you begin to fall in love with the feeling

and you lose yourself forever.