drenched in you

[strong]

God I want it
I haven't wanted it in so long
I try to be strong
I try to make everyone around me happy
and laugh
and smile
I'm nothing
nothing but a ghost
headed to the other side
would they notice
would anyone notice
I want to let go
I'm tired of being strong
I don't want to go back to that place
I don't want to be her again
not again
I'm tired of being here
being me
I act like it's easy
it's far from easy
sure my life is "okay"
I've had a "good life"
good friends
good parents
whatever
a good life doesn't mean I'll have a good heart
a good mind
and I'm close to braking
again
not again
please not again