A letter to my ten years old.

To my dearest 10 years old.

Dear me:
A lot of things are about to happen.
You just moved where you lived your childhood, and you're in a new school, 6th grade. You won't see your father and his family in one year, your brother will still bullying you for the next two years, don't worry it's gonna be ok, forgive him, he loves you a lot.
boys are going to bully you a lot.
You will read too much, so you can disappear for a moment and live another life. Your grandfather, and your dog are going to die. Don't worry, you're gonna be fine, as always. And you are going to move again.
Your best moment it's going to be in high school, you're gonna meet your first love (spoiler: is a she). Don't be scared of that, no matter what people say, love is love and that's all that matters. Don't worry about what your parents are going to say, they love you, no matter what you want to be.
People are going to hurt so, so bad. You're going to cry a lot. You will be depressed about two years, you're gonna have anorexia and bulimia, or something like that. then, in a healthy way you will lose 21 kg, and you are going to look great so boys are going To start taking to you more, don't believe what they say.
You will lose your virginity at 15, with your first love, before you were a couple, so don't be nervous, it's going to be really really great. I know you will be scared because of what she makes you feel, well... Don't be, it's going to be the best experience of your life so far.
You're are going to break up with you girlfriend in college, and that's gonna hurt. You will read again, after 3 years (Never drop it again). You're gonna have a boyfriend, for the first time in your life, you won't love him, and you will cheated on him like 7 times. You will have sex with him, and with another guy, he's gonna say that he loves you, well, it's not truth, he will use you.
After 4 months you're gonna miss you ex girlfriend a lot, and you will want to go back with her, because you will realize that she is the love of your life. I can't tell you right now if you are going to go back together, I'm still waiting her answer. But, be patient, love exits. (She said no, and did it hurt a lot. So write about it, and be strong).
When you turn 12 your mom is going to give you a cat, it will died in two months. In 3 years you're gonna have two cats again, one is going to die. It's going to be one of the worst experience of your life, so be strong. Now you just left one cat, and it's going to make you happy everyday of your life, so love her.
Here's a tip: alcohol it's not a way out. But it's okay one or two beers. Don't use drugs, well no, I don't know, I haven't done that.
Never stop practicing English.
Another spoiler: your won't meet your soul-met In any of your trips, it's not going to happen. But you will have a lot of fun. Advise: use warm clothes for San Antonio.
Don't rush the time, everything's gonna happen when it has to happen. And please don't hurt yourself, because you're the only one that's going to be with you the rest of your life, so you better love yourself. I Know you can be really exasperating sometimes, but it's part of growing up so it's ok.
Suicide it's not the answer, but don't be scared of that thoughts, it's normal, just don't try to do it, because you won't get it anyways. Singing, reading and loving are the ways out.
Love does exist. Sometimes hurts, a lot. But it worth it. And always remember: it's always better love than being loved. Of course it's wonderful being loved, but I'd rather being capable of loving someone than just being loved and can't love back. I know you will understand.
Don't worry when things don't came out as you expected, everything happens for a reason, and in one way or another, everything is going to be ok.
I'm telling you everything just how it happened, because I don't want you to do anything else. I want you to do everything just exactly as I did. And never regret anything. Because believe me, life is amazing, and I don't want our life to be different, we have to learn how to love it just as how it is, and we're doing it, right now, everyday. Forever.
And remember, I'll always love you, and I'll always be there for you, no matter what.
lots of love,
You in 7 years.
Brenda Sofía.