Not the Only One

Forget about you C2

 I remember when I asked you to be my Valentine. I was hoping that you would say yes. But instead, you left me with an answer I was not looking for. No, you said. Of course, I didn't want to create a scene right in the middle of the basketball courts, so I shrugged and turned towards my best friend, Jareli.  I cried on her shoulder, and being that supportive friend she was, she told me that it's going to be okay and just to pretend that never happened. I was so devastated when a few days later, you texted my these words: I don't want you to look at me, talk to me, or hang out with me. I wanted to sink down to the clouds that were floating above me. I swallowed the lump on my throat again. You were always by my side, giving me your smiles, and making me laugh! I loved the way you would play around with me, but really, after what has happened between us, it really felt like we were breaking up when our relationship never even began.  

 Not even the  things I fond of doing daily were enough to make me forget the tragic, and unforgettable past. It was like a syrup with pancakes. The syrup being the past and the pancakes representing my whole life. Of course I wouldn't waste my whole life on the  overwhelming horror of the previous days. I had better things to do. For once, I get to start my life all over. I could be someone new. NO, I am not going to high school. I am going to eight grade. All the kids in my class are mostly people I don't know. Except, one-third of the class was from my class last year, but I hardly talk talk to them. I was pretty nervous because this year, I had to show everyone who I really am. I don't want to hide my true self anymore. I want to be me! 

  I began to walk to my classroom when I saw Aiden walking by. I walked slower by every millisecond.  He walked quicker and I couldn't help, but feel that this was all my fault. Of course it was! I was the one that made him dislike me. I wanted to go back home and bury my face in my pillow. You know, to drain my problems away. But this is reality. And the only way to change things is by changing me. I, of course (being the stupid person I am) rolled my eyes at him when he looked over. Hey! I wasn't thinking that time! I stiffened after he gave me the look back at me. Cold. I quickly walked to my classroom and tried to find any seat that was available. AHA! I practically threw myself over and smiled to myself. No more miss nice gal. A boy near me threw a perplexed look with a crooked smile. 

 He was probably wondering why I sprang into action and laid myself on the seat. I giggled to myself and shrugged at him, giving him a smile. We both laughed at my actions as the teacher closed the door. Wow! His eyes are as green as ivy and his hair was the color of chocolate Hershey's. He seemed to be pretty nice, too. "Hi class! My name is Miss Lee and we are going to start this day off by playing a few games and then dive in to the procedures and hand out the papers your parents have to sign." She said. I rolled my eyes. Ugh, more work for my parents. I mean, I should probably be like, YES! My parents now know how it feels to have as much homework as I have daily. But I'm not like that. My parents work a lot so I don't really complain about having much homework. I looked over at my friend Lisa who sat behind me. She was pretty bored as well as the class. The only not very bored students in the class were the crazy, obnoxious girls that sat in front. They were probably spreading some gossip by now and describing their fabulous summer. 

 I didn't really do much over the summer but travel. We went to California  a couple times and for the first time ever, I went to a hotel. They served the BEST breakfast EVER! It was just so GOOD! Then we went to Sea World and San Diego Zoo. Ok, ok. It was maybe the best summer I have ever had, but it's just an ordinary summer going to ordinary places. Suddenly, I felt a stare beside me so I looked over. The guy I mentioned before quickly turned his head in a flash. Why was he staring at me? Is it possible that already a guy likes me and it's just the beginning of the year. I almost swooned after the thought raced in my mind. SQUEEE!!! I can't believe it! Maybe thinking of another guy will totally make me forget Aiden. I smiled dreamily and closed my eyes, picturing myself in a dress I have just purchased dancing  gracefully with the cute guy next to me... But... it didn't seem right. Honestly, it's really hard to forget about someone you actually really liked.

 Anyways, I heard that Aiden still like my best friend, Sabrina. So I'll just forget about Aiden and I'll be with someone who's like him (the guy next to me). I still wish you, Aiden, would apologize to me. Or I wish that I had the nerve to apologize to you. I guess in a way it's not over between us. For we are still enemies, I just hope you remember who I really am and that I am not really a crazy, in love, girl. I was just blind and thought I was in love...