I'm having a bit of a dilemma right now. I think I'm in serious love. But then again. I DONT KNOW IF WHAT IM FEELING IS EVEN LOVE!!! So um...something happened recently with this guy. And um *deep breath* I don't know how I feel about him. I feel as though I may like him but I don't know if it's love or just "I think he's such a good friend and I like very much!"....but after the *ahem* "thing" happened...I sorta floated back home...I spent the past half hour singing multiple love songs. (One of them is the video above and it describes my love life in such a perfect way, I can't even) I was doing a series of made-up ballet steps as I was singing AND I barely ate anything...yes my friends...my appetite was gone. And that is a HUGE sign of love. But here's the thing. Three reasons why I don't WANT to be in love.
1) it was still horribly awkward when "it" happened (thx god we r still friends)
2) I'm afraid of being hurt again. (That's a long story and I'm not explaining now)
3) I dot know if I'm ready to...be in a relationship yet honestly.
Ok so I'm at that stage where my love hormones or whatever are starting to really kick in. And yes I have multiple crushes but I feel as with this guy, it was different. I felt a new kind of feeling that I had never felt before. So as the title says....
Is this love?!?!
And if it is....
Well no chance no way, I'm not saying I'm in love.
