The Drug In Me Is You! [Green Day & Falling In Reverse]

Is this.. Your brother?

Alexa POV (Alex)

"Hey Billie can you drive me to the hospital?" I ask him, I need to see my little brother.. He's in coma and there going to pull the plug next week and iv been crying endlessly so I need to see him one last time.

"Why is that?"

"I want to show you.. A person. Someone I love." I say slowly. I sit up and grab my guitar.

"Oh.. Okay.. Sure." Billie says concerned and unsure.

We hop into the car and we are off to visit my little brother.

-at the hospital-

"Hello I would like to visit room 675 for a hour, please." I say looking at the old lady on the computer.

"Sure, go right on down." Says the old lady smiling. I say my thank yous' and kind of fast walk to get to my brothers room. Once we reach there I take a seat next to him and hold his little hand and stroke my thumb back in fourth on his tiny hand.

"Alexa? Who is this?" Billie asks and sits next to me.

"Billie this is my little brother Louis. He's all that I have left. He's the one that gives me little hope to love again." I say and smile sadly.

"Alexa.. I'm so sorry.." Billie says and looks at me sadly.

"Why are you sorry? It's not your fault." I say.

"Alexa what happened?" Billie asks and I know right away he regrets asking me. My eyes filled with pain but yet go soft.

"You don't have to answer that Alex." Billie says guilty.

"No, it's okay. I never told anyone before.. Not even my best friend Molly. Anyhow, my moms friend Robert was driving in the cold September and something happened to the car and it wigged out.." I say looking off in the distance.

"It spun and we hit a tree that knocked Louis out and he's been in coma ever since. The docs are going to pull the plug next week if he doesn't wake up by then." I say with pain in my voice.

"And your father?" Billie asks softly.

"He was in the Marines and they were at war, he spotted a shooter aiming at his buddy and right before the shot he dove right in front of him and saved his life while my father died slowly. He was a brave man and was honored. He will forever been in my heart. That is why I don't like September and it's September and my brother is going to pass in a week." I say as tears slip out and I begin to sob. Billie picks me up and sets me in his lap hugging me and whispering soothing words to comfort me.

I hug Billie tight and cry in his shirt. It feels good to finally tell somebody but every time I think or speak about it I break down and cry.

"I miss him Billie, I miss him so much it hurts. It hurts a lot Billie." I say in between sobs and I still hold on to him tightly.

"Shh.. Let it all out Alexa.. Just let it out." Billie whispers and holds me tightly. I sob and let it all out at he tells me to. After a lot of sobbing I only have a few tears left. Then I remember I need to sing him Flightless Bird, American Mouth.

I pick up my guitar and strum my guitar and sing him the song, having only a few tears slip and land on my guitar.

"Have I found you.. Flightless Bird.." I sang softly and strum my guitar.

I finish the song and look at Billie and smile weakly.

"Anytime I visit him I always sing to him.. Before the crash I would always sing to him because he would beg me to with his puppy eyes I couldn't say no to. So I come and sing to him.. I speak to him and open my mind to him and talk endlessly about what's been going on." I say softly remembering the moments we shared together.. All those laughing good moments.. Singing to him as he went to bed..

I get up and kiss his forehead long and slowly, so much pain inside me. I take his hand softly and say,

" I love you Louis, and one day when my time comes we will meet again. I love you and so does father. Til we meet again Louis. I love you." I say with so much pain saying those words slowly. I didn't want to say 'good bye' because it hurts just to say those two words. I pick up my guitar and look at my brother one last time. I walk out of this door with my head hung low. We check out and head back to the car, I just look out the window wishing Louis could be with me.. After a while I fall asleep. I haven't slept in a while because I can't really sleep.

I wake up in a room, I flutter my eyes and sit up to find someone next to me. Billie.

"Oh good your up. You fell asleep in the car and I tried shaking you to wake up and you never did so I was worried." Billie says.

I sit there and think. I need to visit and talk to father at the cemetery.

"Billie ill be back in a bit, there's another person I need to visit." I say and get off the bed and grab my things.

"Wait, Alex can I come with you?" Billie asks looking at me worriedly.

I stop at the door and say over my shoulder, "I don't care but I just need to be alone for a bit." I say sadly.

"Alright Alex, please be safe.." Billie says in a pleading tone.

"Billie, you gotta know. I'm never safe I'm a wreck." I say sadly and walk out the door. Time to visit my father again. But before I do Billie comes out and looks at me very worriedly.

"Oh, and since it's September I'm kinda a bit weird and I'm such a ass too in this time of year." I say, it's true I'll do stupid stuff. Why me? Why did this happen to me?

Why...