I Love You

The First Winter

I woke up to a pair of beautiful eyes..
The beauty threatens to take my breath away...
Eyes as cold as ice.
As blue as the winter's first day break sky.

Her body was cold to the touch and her muscles are starting to harden. I held her tight in my arms as I fought to keep the slightest warmth in her body.

"Let her go...!"

I heard a muffled noise. With my eyes barely opened, I looked to the host of the hostile voice.

"Shes gone... Let her go.."

He said something, I saw his mouth moving and I heard him but I could not make up the sentence. My mind refused to comprehend..

"Shes still warm, feel her, shes still here with me"

I smiled.

"That is your body's heat, not hers... Shes gone.."

"No.. You're not serious.. Look at her! Shes still looking back at me.. she looks so beautiful.. Just like when I first saw her"

"Her pupils are dilated and you know what it means.. You need to return her to her family.. You can't hold her forever..."

I shook my head firmly with my eyes shut tight. I clenched my jaws so tight that it started shivering. My eyes burning from the tears that are forcing their way out.

"Dear Lord, if you can hear me right now.. Don't .. please don't let Lea leave. Don't take her. Not yet. Not now. We havent done so many things together.. I beg you, I can't.."

This time tears flowed out like a broken dam. I opened my eyes and stare into Lea once more.. As a houseman, I knew shes gone. I can no longer hear nor feel her heartbeat. Rigor mortis is setting in, her body is starting to stiffen. It was the last week of autumn and the leaves were gone from its trees. As though the world understood my grief, the world too lost its color as they turn pale like Lea.

The air reflected what I felt inside, the wind stung as it brushes past my face. My body heat could no longer preserve any wamrth in her..

Lea is gone.

It took a day for me to finally let go of Lea's body.. My legs were numb to the core for placing Lea on my lap. My arms were sore and shivering from holding Lea's body against my chest.

I hated that I had to let go of her. I know I'm being selfish, for keeping her instead of returning her to her family but I hated myself more for not being able to do more things together with her and for not being able to beat death.

At the day of the funeral, I couldn't keep any strength in my legs as I sat beside the coffin while the ceremony commence. Silently, I tapped the coffin, as though I was coaxing her to sleep. As the coffin was lowered into the ground, I kissed it goodnight..

It was 5 years ago.

"Titusssss! How are you doing mate? Today, is your first day at work of your final year as a houseman before officially becoming a full fledged doctor! I'm so jealous of you!"

Says Dakota, my best friend and also my senior of the badge before me. He stayed back a year because he always disappears from crisis. Every time when help was needed, he is no where to be found and mysteriously, no one ever asked why.

I changed into my robe, took my stethoscope and closed my locker door to be greeted by Dakota's overwhelming face. He was leaning against the lockers with his right elbow as he supported his head with his palm looking intently at me. He had a keen expression like a kid waiting for a good tale to be told.

"Appreciated. Thanks I'mma go get some coffee before going to my prof's"

I smiled and gave him an awkward tap on his shoulder and left the room. Before the door closed behind me, I heard him raised his voice "Awkward Turtleeee!" - 'Click'

With a sigh, I left for the office.

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*Hi readers!

Hope you are alright so far :) the story started out heavy. I will try to update my stories regularly :)

Hope you'll enjoy it!

Love,
Claudine