Sterek

I'm a monster

"But we'll get trough it though!" Derek yelled.

"Yeah sure calm down" I said, laying my hand on his back and traced circles.

***

Full moon was soon, and everyone had planned everything. It was all settled and everyone was ready. Except me.
I didn't know how to handle it, I was nervous. What if I killed someone? What if I killed Derek?

I was being locked up by Derek, everyone else had just left and was waiting upstairs. We were in Allison's basement, her father thought it'd be the best place for me to get locked up. Derek looked at me, and traced his hand for my cheek. I couldn't move, I was locked up with chains in a electric chair.

"It's going to be ok" he whispered, kissing my dry lips.

"How can you be so sure" I asked as a tear rolled down. Derek wiped it away, and kissed my cheek.

"I know you, Stiles. Even though you won't be you, you wouldn't even hurt a fly" he smiled assuringly.

"I love yo-" he added,

"Don't. Not know. I wanna be completely sure, that we both will be awake after this. Then I can say it back. Ok?"

He nodded and kissed my lips one lay time, holding it a bit longer. When letting go, he closed the metal door behind him, and locked it.

***

I woke up in a bed.

That's all I remember.

I don't remember anything else. My wrist were bleeding, and i wasn't locked up anymore, i wasn't in the same room anymore, I was in my bed. I went downstairs, while my wrist were healing. I walked in to a chaos.

did I do that?

Did I do that to Derek and all the others?

I was about to cry, but I thought that Derek needed me. So instead I carried him upstairs. While the others slowly waking up. They followed me upstairs and gathered around the bed, that Derek was in. I sat down next to him, tears silently escaping my eyes. I'm a monster.

He has been in that bed for hours I have been able to take away the pain for a while. Every chance I got, I used my powers to suck all the venom out of his veins. I was so angry with myself I can't believe that I have done that to him. To the only guy I pictured having a future with.

I suggested to call Deaton, but they all agreed it wouldn't help. They knew what was wrong with him, and no medicine from Deatons clinic could help that.

They were right, he only needed time. Cause, finally after a couple of extra hours, he opened his eyes slowly.

"Hey baby" I said in a caring voice.

"Hey Stiles" he answered, as if it hurt every time he tried talking.

"How are you feeling?"

"Fabulous" he smiled making me smile.

"Do you need anything?"

"Just you"

"Rest, ok?"
He nodded and went back to sleep. Now I could sleep too, cause I knew he would wake up again.

***

After some time he was up. He fainted the first time he tried to get up but he tried several times and now he could walk, talk and act normal again. But I know he won't survive another one of my attacks.

"How many times does this happen before I get used to it?" I asked.

"look stiles what happened wasn't your fault. All I now is Peter was right. You're stronger than anybody else. And for you it might take 4 to 5 full moons" He answered.

"I have a plan" I said and went downstairs with Derek in my hand where the rest already were.

"So what's you're plan?" Derek asked as everyone was likening.

"I will get away every full moon, i'll run to a desert or something like that, with only animals, so I won't get blood thirsty, and I'll come back when I'm done" I said.

It was a great plan, they all agreed so we were done and they left. I sat on the couch with Derek.

"That means we have to wait a little longer" he said.

"Why?" I asked.

"Because I don't wanna do it, knowing you're not completely ready," he said.

"Alright" I pouted.

"Don't worry baby, It'll be worth it!" He said with a tender voice. I loved the way he called me baby.

"We just have to wait a little longer, with everything, ok? Not only the... Physical, but also the emotional and your birthday party"

"What? Aww my birthday isn't until a couple of months?"

"Is that ok?"

"Yeah I guess. As you said, it'll be worth it"

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A/N: sorry if it's going too fast, I just don't know what to write I between.

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