I'm an idiot! I'm stupid!
Why you ask?
Or you tell me no I'm not
But you're wrong
I let you in every time
I let all my guards down
Shielding myself is what I should do
But I want to trust you like I did before
I want to know you will be there for me
You gave me so much, all that I loved
I smile at the thought of you
But I cry at the same time
My heart tricks me
Hoping you'll come back
Wishing you'll return
Yet my mind shoots reality
It smashes in my face
My hard work wont ever pay off
I will be left alone
Regretting nothing is right
Hardship will grasp me
Sorrow will cloud around me
I ignored the signs
I pushed passed the warnings
You don't want to run
Not into my arms
I should have been careful
Instead I took a risk
Now heartbreak is killing
You didn't just take a piece
You blew up my heart
The sensitivity is gone
You care but not as much
Your guard is up
More distance is between us
I wasn't afraid with you
I should've never faced my fears
I cant be brave anymore
Giving up is better
No hopes, no dreams to have
My soul is becoming hollow
The glow of true happiness is gone
You're not going to be there
You're not going to hold my hand
You're just going to crush me
Devour me, kill me slowly
I never thought I would imagine
Imagine you this way
Yet you prove its truth
Every move you make is further away
I will always be there for you
But for now I'm drowning
I'm drowning in endless tears
