Dear Luke...

Febuary 1st, 2014

Dear Luke,

It's Callie again lol

Sorry I haven't wrote to you in a while

I've been busy I guess

And I'm trying to move on...

But every time I think about getting out of the house and socializing I just feel like I don't have a reason to.

But deep down I know that I need to.

I'm starting to realize that you can't come back.

I'm trying.

I'm trying so hard.

It's not working Lukas

I'm trying to forget about you.

We dated for a 5 years and it's been 2 years since you left.

I need to move on.

It's just I'm trying but I don't know how Luke

I've been dating this guy for 2 weeks now...

And let's just say he's like exactly like you.

I feel like I'm just using him because he's like you.

But I don't really love or really like him.

I love you Luke, I can't love anybody else.

I'm going insane over here.

I never ask how you are do I?

I'm sorry for being so depressing and boring.

I'm gonna be lonely forever lol

You were honestly the only real boyfriend I've ever had.

I've been looking at our old pictures and that's probably the biggest mistake I've made lately.

Seeing you happy makes it hurt even more.

Because now I know that you were faking.

I know that those smiles are fake...

And it hurts so much.

I could've helped you and I didn't.

I didn't do anything.

I hate myself.

It's my fault you left.

I'm a horrible person luke...

I need to go.

Bye lukey.

Love,
Callie <3