Ending it with "My love"

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Today's been an exciting and an exhausting day. I got a call from the Dallas Stars Organization about a job offer. I never thought this day would come. Words can't describe how happy I am.

I also got a call from the Philadelphia Flyers. But I respectfully declined that offer. Growing up as a New York Ranger fan I knew that, that just wouldn't work. My family's very proud of me.

Telling everyone about the news was great except telling Derrick was a little heartbreaking. My morning consisted of waking up next to the love of my life, getting a call from the stars, accepting the offer, calling and telling everyone, and getting into a huge argument with Brass. Which led to yelling and tears.

We didn't have that much time to talk about it this morning. Basically we yelled and then he had to go to this meet and greet with Matts Zuccarello.

Which lasted a couple of hours, but it's been 6 hours since he left. I figured that he's just trying to clear his head. I tried calling him multiple times but he never answered. Then I finally got a text telling me that we'll talk in a little at our apartment.

Yes we live together. We're been together for almost 2 years now. We have that bestfriend kind of relationship.

To be honest I'm just laying on the couch. Waiting for him to come home. After another hour I hear the key and the doorknob turn. I'm a mess right now. I have his sweatpants on, a oversized tee shirt, my glasses, and my hair up in a bun.

Once he opens the door and he walks in I sit up from the couch. As soon as our eyes meet I run and jump in his arms. Burying my head into his neck sobbing. I could tell he was crying too from the way he was holding me.

He kissed my head and put me down.

"Derrick." I sobbed.

"It's okay love." He tried to smile. "Let's go sit down." He said.

I couldn't find words to say to him

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I couldn't find words to say to him. I just sat there. I couldn't decide if I was mad or not I mean he's my boyfriend isn't he supposed to be happy for me.

"You know that I'm so in love with you but I can't deal with you being 1,500 miles away from you." He said a single tear escaping from his eye.

I just sat there. What was there for me to say.  I think we just broke up and I'm shocked.

"So what are you saying." I muttered.

He reached for my hand. But I quickly moved it. I didn't want him to touch me right now.

"Kay please." He whispered.

"No Derrick I love you so much you clearly don't love me that much if your not even willing to try." I yelled.

"I do love you I promise. But even when you love things you have to let them go." He said looking at me in the eyes.

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