for Farah: TWENTY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!! [1]

Dear Farah,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Happy one-year anniversary as well!

I swear I'm more excited than you are, about this day. This wonderful, wonderful day! Twenty years ago, on March 8th, 1996: the world was forever changed. Why? Because a lovely girl was born.
On March 8th, 1996, I was probably being a dumb little one-year old and eating dirt or something. I had no idea that nineteen years later, I would meet someone name Farah and fall instantly in love. (Not romantic love, but friendship love). You've always been an amazing person, in my mind. You're always so sweet and kind, and just all around the best friend anyone could ask for. Forget all the gifts you're being given, and all the gifts that you've ever given--YOU are the best gift anyone could ever want.

You're my best friend, Farah. And my sister (my favorite sister, FYI, since I don't actually have any real sisters). If we're going along with the incestuous family tree of Ohana, you're also my mother and my wife and probably my aunt and grandmother, too, lol. But that thing is just a joke, and I'm serious when I say that you're my best friend and my sister. Sure, we're not blood related. We've never even met in person. But you're the best kind of family I have, because I CHOSE you.

Farah, you've always been there for me. No, you're not an angel, because I know you're not perfect (only I am perfect ;) jk). But you're one of the closest things to heaven I know. I know you deal with stuff, and that you have emotions that are good and bad--like everyone else...but you're just...it's hard to explain. You've accepted me when no one else has. You've helped me, advised me, been kind to me...stood by me, prayed for me, and just loved me. I don't deserve your friendship, but I thank God that I have it. I believe that God puts certain people in our lives to guide us and help us and care for us and mature us...and you're my someone. Realistically, you're not my only someone...but you're just soo..ugh, it's really hard to describe. It's hard to put into words, how I love you and how I'm so so thankful for you. I can't even begin to verbalize and write down all this emotion and stuff... And I want to be a poet, lol. XD

You've been a light in my darkness, so thank you. Don't you dare say for me to not thank you--because I will thank you every day because I'm just so so so grateful for you.

I want you to have the best life, I want you to be surrounded with people who love you--I don't want anyone to hurt you. I want them all to care for you like I do, except 10x better. I want you to be happy, happier than I could ever imagine being.

I wish oceans didn't separate us. But I feel closer to you than I do to people who stand two feet away from me. There's something about you, something so...indescribable, haha. (this letter is not going to be all lovely like you, but I'm trying my best here).

I'm not going to promise things that I don't know, I'm not going to say we'll always be like we are today. But I CAN promise that I'll never forget you, and I'll never forget how we are. I'll never forget how you have made me feel--wanted and accepted. I'll never forget how much I love you. Twenty years from now, when we're both 40...In my heart, I'll remember how it was right now. You've made such an impact on me.

I love you, sister.

And I don't know what else to say, so moving on...

Your brother, always,

Mason