Sweet Dreams(a bts sleepover fanfic)

Secrets

I walked back into the dinning room after several moments still in yoongi's room. I had to compose myself. yoongi had even left to join the others again and I knew namjoon would be worried. as soon as I entered my eyes were immediately drawn to namjoon. he was at the end of the table shaking hands with yoongi. it appears they had made up. I knew I should've been happy about it but all I felt was a lump form in my throat as yoongi's last words in the bedroom replayed in my head. "don't tell namjoon....that's number 3....but now even when you kiss him you'll think of me" he smirked before getting up and walking out. now that it looks like they were burying the hatchet if I told i would be breaking my promise and ruining that. if I kept silent the guilt would gnaw away at me and I really would think about yoongi even when I was with namjoon. I glanced back up and this time my eyes met namjoon's. he gave me a dimply smile before making his way back to my side. he kissed my forehead as he took the opportunity to check my scratched arm. "are you ok babe?" he asked lowering his head so that we were eye level and searching my eyes for any signs of discomfort. "I'm ok if you are joonie." I said giving him my best fake smile. he didn't look convinced. "just a bit drained from this mornings excitement" I said trying once again to reassure him. "I think I'm just going to go home and nap. we were up pretty late last night and tomorrow it's back to the real world" I stretched my arms and forced myself to yawn. "let me take you home then" he said scooping me up bridal style and carrying me back to our room to get our things earning him laughs from the others. after collecting our things and saying bye to the others we headed out for my apartment. I thought that being out of yoongi's sight would make me feel a little bit better....but it didn't. my little apartment was only a 5 minute walk away and we arrived in no time. I punched in the code, threw my stuff down by the entrance, and flopped down on my bed. namjoon flopped down right next to me. he rolled onto his side and stared at me. " what is it? " I asked rolling over to face him. he shook his head grinning. "I love you!" he said tucking a strand of hair behind my ear. "I love you too!" I smiled back but the guilt was killing me and it had only been about a half an hour since it happened. I had to tell him.....this was the guy I was in love with. I hated breaking promises and I hated the thought of losing yoongi as a friend but he should never have asked me to do this.

"I....I have to t..tell you something" I stuttered looking down biting my lip. "what is it baby? you know you can tell me anything." he said now taking my hand. I stared at him in amazement. he always tried to seem like a strong leader but on the inside he was as soft and sweet as anyone else. I knew I was doing the right thing. I took a deep breath. "yoongi kissed me!" I blurted out. The lump I felt in my throat from earlier began to melt away and was replaced by tears. "he asked me not to tell you and he's our friend but I can't keep that kind of secret....not from you!" I looked back into his eyes ready for his reaction.....