She had an advantage because there was a ramp but what she didn't know was that I was wearing my heelys so I was right behind her. About a half a hour of playing tag in the hallways, we made our way back to her room. "I think you gained a lot of muscle pushing that wheelchair." I breathed, we were trying to get our breath back from rolling and laughing so much. She looked at me and looked at her arm flexing her muscles. "Ya think?" "Hell yea, that's a lot more than me." I said in my 'ghetto' voice. "Toby visiting hours are over but I told them you were family so you can stay. Hello brother." Amber said throwing her head back, laughing. We all laughed for a good 3 minutes then Alex started to get sleepy. So I picked her up and put her in her bed. "I'm going to go get some coffee. Do you want some?" Amber asked nicely. "Uhhh... Yes a Americano with soy please." She nodded and looked at her daughter, who was sleeping soundly, and walked out. I just sat there again staring at her. Taking in her features. Tall, blue hair, (dyed it) round face, dimple on her right cheek. Then there were the bad things. Pale-splotchy skin, deep bags under her eyes, the dullness of her hair. But I didn't focus in that. Then I realized I needed to vlog.. Wait. No I didn't because I already did before I got to the hospital. I looked at Alex and she looked as though she was having a nightmare. I reached my hand out and intwined our fingers. She immediately calmed down. "Mom?" She said cracking her eyes open a little. "She went to go get coffee. She will be right back." I explained squeezing her hand. She looked at me. "Toby?" I nodded. She looked as though she was having trouble believing it, so I reached my other hand out and moved some hair out of her face. "Can I ask you something?" "You just did." I replied jokingly. She chuckled saying "True, true. But seriously." I smiled and nodded my head. "....Have you ever thought about dying? What it would feel like? Where you will go?" The smile wiped off her face as she asked and fear filled her eyes. I nodded, "Sometimes.. I remember this one time I was running in a flower field and I had really bad allergies. My mom was inside making dinner and my dad was on his computer.nerd." She laughed, "and at that time I didn't know I was DEADLY allergic to flowers. So I had a allergic reaction" Alex now looked at me listening closely, while I was replaying the horrible memory in my head. " I just remember my throat closing up and I ran to the house as fast as I could... But it wasn't enough..." I felt the years welling up in my eyes. " I honestly thought I was going to die. And I did." Alex looked at me in complete shock. "What?" She asked knowing I was going to answer. "I was dead for 17 minutes... 17.. But when I died.. It was scary but I felt... Free. I felt happy. I was in my own little world, like a memory. Man was it a good one." Alex wiped away my tears. "What was your memory?" I laughed, "It was 1992 I was 7 years old. I had a birthday party and I had a really big bouncy house. Haha, I remember that was the best birthday I ever had." I looked down at Alex and she was smiling up at me. "What?" She just smiled, a sweet smile. "Can you lay down with me?" I could tell that all this talking about dying was getting to her. Her eyes started to well up with tears again. I got up from my chair and walked behind her and got into the bed, hugging her from behind. She had one hand above her head so I intwined my fingers with hers and wrapped my other arm around her. I saw that she was picking at something but i didn't think it was important. I snuggled her close to me as she started to cry. "Hey, hey what's wrong." I asked worriedly. "Nothing. I'm just so happy right now.... (sniff) can I ask you one more thing?" I nodded. "Can you kiss me? I mean I know there is an age thing but you know... They won't have enough time to do anything about it." I stared at her shocked as she looked at me. Her tears overflowing her eyes. "It's ok if you don't want to I mean I get i-" I cut her off by lifting her chin and bringing my lips to hers. It wasn't a rushed or rough kiss, it was a sweet kiss that felt like kissing a cloud. It was just nice. She pulled away smiling. "Thanks for being my first kiss Toby." I smiled, "Anytime." She soon started to fall asleep until I started humming Dramatic Song, then she smiled and sang to my hums. Next thing we know we are singing, loudly, 2nd hottest girl,and Mini Minotaur. We laughed and talked some more, even took some pictures. Then Alex fell asleep to me singing Skullcrusher Mountain.
I woke up this morning next to Alex, she was still asleep. I didn't want to wake her so I just stayed there, she was pretty cold she I covered us in a blanket. Her mom was asleep on the little bed they had here. She probably saw us sleeping so she didn't want to wake us. After awhile i got up and saw that Alex was holding something in her hand. It said 'Toby💙' so I grabbed it and opened it.
'Dear Toby, by the time you are reading this... I will have already passed on. I could feel it coming when I was sleeping so I put all my energy into writing this letter. I just wanted to say I love you and thank you again for coming and visiting me. You seriously have no idea what that meant to me. I really liked the bond that we had, we told each other everything. Please tell my mom I love her with all my heart and that I'm sorry I didn't tell her goodbye or anything. But I guess that's what death is. Unexpected. I have a lot more to say to you 2 but I don't think I can fit it all on this piece of paper. Lol. Toby do you remember when you told me about your own little world?' I nodded 'That it was the best thing that happened to you. Well my own little world is going to be last night. Because Toby, you were the best thing that happened to me. My world is going to be me snuggled up in your arms with our hands intwined above our heads. And my first kiss. You made this possible for me Toby. You helped me find peace. I hope you have a wonderful time in Australia. I love you.
Goodbye,
Alex
I put the letter down and looked at Alex with tears streaming down my face. 'No no no No NO!!!!' I thought as I ran to her body as it just laid there, lifeless. I fell to my knees and prayed to God that she is taken care of and that she will always be remembered.
3rd POV
Amber woke up and saw Toby on his knees, she knew that her daughter had passed. She could feel it, but she wouldn't believe it. She got up and walked over to Toby, kneeling down to where he could cry on her shoulder. Which he did and she cried on his. They knew she was in a better place now. Toby went back to Australia after the funeral, he acted like himself because he knew that Alex wouldn't want him to be all moody. He always had Alex with him though. 'She will never be forgotten' He thought to himself as he smiled down at the wallpaper of him and her doing silly faces on his phone.
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Hey guys hope you liked it! I stayed up all night trying to think of something to type... So yea is you have any suggestions just leave a comment.. Plz 💙 love you long time!
