Kellic One-Shots Book

I Love You

WARNING: CAN BE TRIGGERING

It's another boring day at school and I'm just waiting for the final bell to ring. Don't get me wrong I love science but Vic and I are planning to hang out and I would much rather hang out with that sexican than be sitting in science.

Vic is my best friend and has been ever since elementary school. He knows I'm gay but doesn't know I'm totally in love with him. I know, in love with your best friend how cliché. Honestly though how can you not love him. He's so attractive, he's athletic and has a killer body, he's so genuinely nice and is always putting others before himself, he's so intelligent, and has helped me in more ways than one.

I'm so lost in thought I barely catch the bell ringing. Quickly putting everything in my backpack I run through the halls to get to my locker and to Vic's car as fast as I can. I put everything in my locker and start making my way towards the parking lot when I see Vic and Stephanie leaning against his car making out. In an instant I feel my heart break and I just want to cry. I walk up to them, them not even acknowledging my presence. I let out a little cough and finally they pull away.

"Oh hey kell, we still hanging out?" Vic asks me like he totally wasn't just making out.

"um sorry Vic something came up I can't," I lied and quickly walk away ignoring his calls towards me. I was finally going to tell him how I felt but I guess he's with Stephanie and no matter how much I love him and want to be with him, I refuse to ruin one of his relationships. I make it home and run up to my room, finally letting my tears flow freely. I fall upon my bed and just cry and cry not caring if anyone can hear me.

~1 month later~

It's been about a month since Vic and Stephanie started dating and to say I was miserable would be an understatement. Vic has completely dropped me from his life, he has even started to bully me since Stephanie is apart of the "popular group". I don't even know who this Vic Fuentes is, I remember we used to make fun of that group just because they thought they were the shit, but I guess they brainwashed him into thinking it's okay to treat people like crap and make them question their very own existence.

Ever since, I've started self harming more and more. At first it would be occasionally but now I can't go one day without doing it, and it's not even the fact that my best friend beats me and treats me like crap, it's because after all he's done to me I still can't find it in my heart to hate him. I love him so much it's getting ridiculous. My heart physically hurts from loving him so much and him not giving a single shit about me.

At this point I don't even care if he loves me back, I just want my best friend, but I know he's nowhere to be found at this point. I honestly don't even know how much longer I can hold on. I'm sick of getting beaten everyday for being a "faggot", oh yeah he even outed me in front of the whole school, such a great best friend right. I don't like who he's become and I know that once Stephanie is done with him, he's gonna come crying to me like nothing ever happened, but if I'm being honest I don't think I will make it that long.

~2 Months later~

It's been 3 months since Vic and Stephanie started dating, I'm actually surprised they lasted this long honestly. Everything has been getting worse and worse, the bullying, the self harm, the self hate, everything. I stopped eating ever since Vic decided to make a comment on my weight, I hardly ever sleep because I'm to busy crying, and now I can't even harm myself on my arms because there's no where left thus leaving me my hips and thighs but soon enough they're going to be covered soon.

I can't believe I've lasted this long. I'm scared for the day I'm going to crack and maybe end it all. Will that make everything better? Would ending it finally make Vic see that what he's doing to me is slowly killing me. Will ending it finally show Vic and everyone how big of monsters they truly are? I want to know but I'm to scared to find out. I don't even know what's holding me back.

I'm limping home seeing as my after school session with Vic just finished and I'm finally at my breaking point. I can't live like this anymore. I'm tired of getting beaten and being on the verge of death but not actually dying thus making me suffering some more. I'm done. No matter what I will always love Vic and I'm going to tell him before I'm gone. I go to my desk and grab a piece of paper and pen and start writing,

Dear Vic,

I'm writing this letter to you to let you know that I'm no longer here. I'm sorry I did this but with everything that has been happening I can't continue on. The reason I did this is because I couldn't keep living where you beat me and treat me like shit and all I ever wanted was for you to love me back. That's right I love you. I have always loved you and I was going to tell you but you started dating Stephanie and I couldn't find it in my heart to tell you because I saw how happy she made you. I'm sorry everything happened this way but it's for the best, I hope you have a great life and no matter how much you hate me now I will always love you.

Love,

Kellin

Tears are flowing down my cheeks freely as I seal the letter getting ready to deliver it to Vic's house. I make my way outside and towards his house, hoping I'm making the right decision. I know people say that committing suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem but I don't know if all of this is going to be temporary or if I'm always going to be the person who gets picked on.

In what seems like seconds I'm outside Vic's house. I see his car in the driveway so that means I have to run as fast as I can. I go to the door to set the letter down and knock, quickly retrieving back to my house before he sees me. Once I'm back in my room I start looking for the things I need to complete everything. I grab the chair and the rope tying it around the ceiling fan and making a noose at the end. Finally, getting it fixed and ready I step on the chair and put the rope around my neck uttering my last words, " I love you Vic."

"I love you too, Kellin," I jump a little and turn around to see Vic standing at my doorway with tears running down his cheeks. I take the noose off of my neck and step down from the chair walking towards Vic.

"what?" I questioned

"I said I love you too. I have always loved you, I only started dating Stephanie because I was trying to get rid of my feelings towards you but I love you so much and I'm so sorry I have been treating you like that for so long. I know it didn't seem like it but it killed me seeing you not eating at lunch, and always wearing long sleeves and looking like you haven't slept in ages.

I hate causing you so much pain that you felt like this was the only way it was going to get better I hate myself for ever doing this to you and you shouldn't be the one getting beaten it should be me. I'm the horrible human being not you and I can never apologize enough for what I have put you through. I'm sorry Kellin can you ever forgive me?" I just stare at him in shock not even knowing what to say. He says he's sorry and that he loves me. HOLY SHIT HE LOVES ME! Without a second thought I jump into his arms and press my lips firmly against his, like they were ment for each other. We pull away to catch out breaths when I finally spoke.

"It's going to take awhile for me to trust you again but I love you so much I forgive you." I kiss him again loving the way he taste when this time he pulls away, " I promise kellin I will make up for what I've done and I want you to be my boyfriend,"

"what about Stephanie? I love you Vic I really do but I won't let you cheat on someone."

" I already broke up with her once I got your letter, why would I want that piece of trash when I can have something that holds so much more value." I blush like crazy and kiss him again, "so what do you say? Will you be my boyfriend?" he asks once more.

"yes," I simply reply and once again kiss him moving my lips against his, " I love you Vic Fuentes," I whisper.

"I love you too Kellin Quinn," he responds and in that moment I knew I was where I belonged.

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